b r e n d a .

2009-02-16T15:21:00.000-08:00

Hey guys!

I had changed to livejournal.

I may still changed back to blogger but now it will be livejournal.

It doesn't matter whether you want to relink me anot becos I am not closing down this blogger.

So see you guys at livejournal! (:

SO WHY WAIT,

Check out my LJ,

http://brendaxoxo.livejournal.com

Luv you all.

2009-02-13T22:16:00.000-08:00

Happy Eve Valentine Day! Haha. Love is in the air!~

Okay, nothing more to say. Anyway Chalet was fun! Haha.
Goodnight peepos!

BRENDA ;xoxo.

If only you know how much your words meant to me.

2009-02-08T22:50:00.000-08:00

就算沒有結果,我也能夠承受。

我知道妳的痛,是我給的承諾。

妳說給過我縱容,沉默是因為包容。

如果要走,　請妳記得我。　

如果難過,　請妳忘了我。

Was listening to my old old old music and came across this song.

I love this song alot when I was 13yrs old. Lmao.

Make me think of sec 1e5. Hahah.

Till now, I still find Jie Kou by JayChou is nice.

Hahah. Okay, till here. Nights, you guys!

BRENDA

2009-02-07T15:33:00.000-08:00

LeeDONGHAE ; mylove!

Ytd, went out with Chloe. Hahah. We went Far East and then went to Changi Airport, Chloe's favourite place! Hahah. As we were very hungry, we went to eat Popeyes! Very nice esp. sharing it with Chloe. Lmao.

After that we went to draw pictures? Or should I say trace? I also dont know la.

I am lazy to say more, let the picture show you what we have done.

In the toilet.

I was trying to give the effect that I jumped into the fountains but failed.

Our Drawings! (:

Brenda & Chloe.

I love Donghae!

Fyi, this is Chloe's future bf. Heheh. Handsome right?

Okay, that is all for ytd.

This morning woke up abt 6 plus. Damn sleepy la. Went to brother cross country.
I run almost the whole reservoir because of my sister.
She run so so so fast, can? I can't catch up with her.
End up, my father run with her.
I slowly behind catching up with them.

Congrats to my brother who got position 41. He got a badge for being top 50. Why didnt I see Junyuan having that too???? Lol.
After that went to the playground with my sister and she decided to be Bob, the Builder.
LOL

At first, there was nth there.

Then she decided to build an ANTS HOUSE. Hahah.

Building in Progress.

Tar-dan! An ANTS HOUSE.

Today weather was super good.

I was boring la. Hahah.

FLOWER POWER!

Went to eat breakfast/lunch after that. Then back home.

Maybe, going out tonight.

Hahaha. Class Chalet is coming!~ Excited.

BRENDA

The pieces of my heart are missing you.

2009-02-01T22:14:00.000-08:00

BORED BORED BORED.

No taiwan drama to watch. So watched hong kong drama.

Hahah. Watched WAR OF THE IN-LAWS 2.

Watched it because of BOSCO WONG; 黄宗泽! Lol.

But very funny so people out who want to laugh, watch this!

Lol. Sadly, I am not paid to do this advertisement.

Hahah. Goodnight, peeps!

BRENDA!

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR ; LEE DONGHAE!

2009-01-30T17:35:00.000-08:00

长大后身边的人,总是沉默把自己的心反锁.

幸好有你这首歌温暖着我,不会忘记了初衷。

慢慢的一二三，渐渐的在两端独自穿过陌生街头。

不让泪逗留一样的月光，蒸发了泪光爱让有情的人可以去跟痛抵抗一样的月光。

照在我的心上有爱我的人陪我生活就有方向喜悦，悲伤。

因你而发光，陪我去闯。

Well, well, well. Got back my posting result today.

Hahah. Got my 7 choice? I think so.

Singapore Polytechnic, Maritime Transportation Management.

Hahah. Quite like this course.

Just that nobody I know get into singapore poly right now.

How am I going to live my first day at school????

Lol. Anyone entering Singapore Poly, must tell me! Hahah.

Well, had watched Love Matters with TingTing, Kelly, ShaoHui, Benjamin, Chengwei, Weiming, Keith and Teck Chuan on Wednesday? I think so. Very long never meet them le, miss them alot. Hahah. Well, the show is not really nice. Oh ya and before that meet Chloe during her dinner break. Ate dinner with her and chat with her. Long time never chat with her le, so fun!~

I missed the school times!~ 4E6'08.

Watched The marriage game on Thursday. Well, it sucked big time. Luckily 黑人is in the show, if not can sleep and although 黑人quite gay in the show, he is till cute!~ Haha. But the storyline suck suck suck, well, in my view la. Hahah.

Going to have family dinner with my grandparents and uncle family later.

Well, can't wait. Haha.

Will update soon!~ Hahah.

BRENDA (:

我喜欢黄靖伦!

2009-01-22T16:16:00.000-08:00

I'm tired. Wishing that it will get better.

I'm angry of myself...

because of several reasons. First of all, i left a scratch on my sweet sweet phone.

Zzzzz. Sucky day.

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BYE, and sorry this is a fucked up post. If can, ignore it.

Ya, moodswing!~ )(*&^%$#

2009-01-15T16:37:00.000-08:00

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale.

I'm not the one you sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell.

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town.

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.

Now it's too late for you, and your white horse, to come around.

HEYHEYHEY! I'm here to update my blog again.

Well, I begining to miss secondary life. I am going to be bored to death at home.

Should I find a job or should I rot at home?

Lol. I want to go out with my friends but they are either working or we had drifted apart.

Haha. Well...staying at home rotting meaning I wouldnt have much to update.

So... I shall tell you my top 10 songs I am currently, repeating-ly listening in my mp3.

动脉 -飞轮海
White Horse - Taylor Swift
Crush - David Archuleta
越来越爱 - 飞轮海
Love Story - Taylor Swift
爱我别走 - 周杰伦
鬼混 - 黄鸿升
转机 - 潘玮柏
Superhuman - Chris Brown
Fly on the wall - Miley Cyrus

SPECIAL KOREAN SONG - Noona, you're pretty - SHINEE.

Very very very nice songs! Haha. White Horse by Taylor Swift is my blog song!
Hahah. Now, let me recommend you some drama to watch.

霹靂MIT :DDDDD

It is really really a super super super cool drama, a very unique one for Taiwan drama so it a must to watch. And the lead male actors are all so so so cute especially 小鬼 and ArronYan.

The story goes like this...
The legend of the team Pi Li MIT secretly protecting Sheng Ying School was never public acknowledged but nonetheless spread wildly among the student body. But for some reason, the team was displaced and evil began to wreak havoc in the school after years of peace. Students targeted are those who received an anonymous CD, containing a PC-game, from someone called Hei Gui (Black Ghost). The last remaining member of the secret team, Teacher Cherry, decides to recruit the baddest of all bad students, "007", "187", "747" and "Tian Mo Xing", to form a new generation of Pi Li MIT to solve the crimes and restore the school back to its former glory. Along the way, "Tian Mo Xing" and "007" develop a complicated relationship, while "747" begins to develop feelings for "Tian Mo Xing". The new generation of Pi Li MIT must not only find out who the "Black Ghost" is, but also work together and resolve their differences while unlocking the secrets of the school, students, and themselves.

Hahahha! very very very nice. Currently, I am watching Boys Over Flowers, the korean version. Hahah. It is a little different from the Jap. version.

It is now airing in korean on Monday and Tuesday meaning I only get to see two episodes per week. Hahah.

Okayokay, I shall end here. Must have the last thought about the courses I want to choose. Hahah. Tmr, deadline :/ Wish me luck!

BRENDA (:

2008-12-31T16:53:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! I'm posting again.

Hahah. Actually, got nothing much to post.

I had finish the four books of twilight series. Really enjoyed it very much. You all should read it. You will love Edward Cullen BUT he is mine. (: Sorry!

Currently, I am reading PS, I Love You. A very very very touching book though. Love Gerry being thoughtful even though he is not around her anymore. (:

Okay, I am putting two very very very very nice songs.

Two of my very very very very very favourites songs.

Two songs that are sang by very very very GORGEOUS guys. Haha.

Hope you will enjoy it!

羅志祥 - 搞笑

王力宏 -心.跳

Okay, let's all welcome the new year 2009! :D

BRENDA

When the time comes, all I can do is to forget about it.

Forget everything then.

2008-12-15T16:41:00.000-08:00

Like a balloon, you flew away.

Yoyoyoyo. I'm posting again.
Out of boredness, I changed my blogskin. It is a very simple skin but I love it.
Into ya is a song by Jesse McCartney. Quite nice, you should go and listen to it.
Lol. Well, after my short trip of oversea-ing.
I feel fresh. During the trip, thought about lots and lots of things.
And so I sort out my thoughts about lots of things.
So I am the brand new me. Well, some people will hate the me now, some may like.
But whatever, I can't possible make everyone happy.

I watched BOLT, the superdog movie and I love it. Hahah.
The love that Penny had for her dog is super alot.
Hahah. Overall, quite nice.

I am certainly bored to death at home.
But I am going out with Chloe this wednesday. And out with Joel soon.
Can't wait. And Christmas, how shall we celebrate?
I don't know. Everybody is working so so so busy.
Hahah. Shall end here.

BRENDA :)

Just walk away and don't look back.
Because if my heart break, it gonna hurt so bad.

2008-12-06T20:55:00.000-08:00

Hey, guys! Finally, I am updating my blog.
Hahaha. Well, during this period of times.
Many things had happened.

Some good, some bad, I am trying very hard to get over those bad things and trying to rmb all those good things that happened.

#1. PROM NIGHT at Royal Plaza on Scott.

Took a cab there with Chloe, Yiwei and TingTing.

Haha. Reach there, we are late by 10 minutes?

Waited for Huiji, Keith and ShaoHui before going in. There are quite a lot of foods there.

Hohoho!

We started the night by eating. Then, play treasure hunt games? Haha. After that, there was 20 lucky draw. Surprisingly, I got second, haha. But must go up the stage to take.

I was so nervous. Haha.
.... I forgotten some parts but I rmb there is a lot of photo taking session that take place. Haha.

Some photos below, enjoy! (:

In the cab :D

Eating! Yummy.

4e6! Haha.

Twist! 4e6 again.

Chengwei & Me!

Yiwei & Me!

Shao Hui & Me!

Ben & Me!

Yiwei, Me, Huiji :)

Singyee & Me!

Our table ; Lovethem ^^

AhPong & Me!

Evon darling & Me!
( After many many many shot, finally)

4e6 again. :)

To my fellow classmates,

Two years together was a memorable time for me and you. There was lots of good times together, as well as bad times. But, no matter what happened, we will still be as united as a class. ^^

I was thinking when did all those bonding started?

Well, i think it started when we attended the OBS camp.

During OBS, we laugh together, eat together and play together. It was so tiring but I never thought of going home. I still miss those times there ^^

Alright, enough of these. Haha!

BUT,

In the future, I will miss the times when we are studying together, having lunch together...

Keep in contact!~

Alright, I shall end my touching speech here.
Hahaha. All the best, 4e6'08!

#2. DISNEY LIVE @ 18Sept.

Went to watch it with my sister and brother.

My parent treat! All thanks to my sister who got third in class. Hahaha. It was really fun.
I saw MICKEY MOUSE!~ HE WAS CUTE with Minnie Mouse. Haha.
Well, there were a few stories. Started with Snow White & the seven dwarfs. Then became Cinderalla. The stepsisters were funny. Ended with Beauty & the Beast, my favourite! ^^

I love love love the part when Bella told the Beast that she love him.

Awww, it was sweet!

Some pictures below,

THE STAGE ^^

MY SISTER ; the minnie mouse.

Oh ya, and my brother went in like not for show, like for dinner.
He keeps eating and eating, like never eat before snacks. Pity him. LOL.

#3. TWILIGHT @ 18 Dec 2008.

I can't wait wait wait for the movie.

Edward Cullen, my swwweetheart! Anyway, I am going to finish Eclipse soon.

Can't wait to read Breaking Dawn. Hahahah!

Eh, I think my post quite long already. Haha. Oh ya, damn sad. I miss one week of fun because I was sick. FALLING SICK SUCKS. But I recovering!~ So, I will be happy!

To both of my good friends,
Although we are not as close as last time. But I really still treat you as my friend. Really hope you all will accept me as your good friends again. I'm waiting for that day to come. Well, all the best! :)

Okay, I shall end here.
I will update soon!
Miss me! Hahahah.

BRENDA

You're my endless love (:

2008-10-17T18:30:00.000-07:00

爱你不需要理由，也不需要什么回报。

我爱你。

我会在看到你吗？

我很想...

但应该没有理由再见面了。

2008-10-14T17:10:00.000-07:00

Hey Guys! I am here to update my blog again. Hahah.
Ytd, ytd went out with my peeps. And here are some photo and video for you guys to enjoy.

We went to celebrate the October Babies birthday who is me, Yiwei, Chloe, Chengwei and AhPong. Hahah. Alot of people uh. So, I buy present until abit broke now but nvm, at least i am happy to buy for them! Hahah.

US :D

Top :Tingting, Shao Hui, Chengwei, Benjamin, AhPong

Below: Kelly, Steph, Me blocked by Yiwei, the big headed doll, Huiji and Chloe.

We girls! Hahaha. I looked tall ^^

ME, YIWEI, CHLOE.
Our best shot. Lol.

Chengwei and AhPong trying to figure who should finish the cake. Lol.

My present from them. Dont let you all know what is all that! Lol

Sneak Peek Of our unqiue birthday celebration.
Each person blow one candle. Hahah.

After that, went to DOWNTOWN EAST, E-HUB to play arcade. Very very very fun. We played from CARS to DRUMS. Lol. But...
Sigh. Time past fast though. We will go out soon! After our big O which I am going to study now. Hahah.
Cya guys soon.

BRENDA :D

If I can stop and rewind time, I will.
And I'm sorry.

2008-10-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

My heart had already given to you.
Please don't wake me up from my dream.
I am helplessly in love with you.

Hey guys. I am online because I don't feel like studying.
How? I am not studying when I am left one week? Am I really going to give up now? Then my hard work for the past few months had gone to waste already.
I am so tired uh. I dunno why too.
Anyway everyone jiayou bah. Let chiong till 11Nov. Haha.
I can't wait for that day. Wees.

My four favourite books. Hahah. I am excited about the movie that is coming out in december.
Hahaha.

BRENDA

Thank you for the memories you left for me.
How I wish the time with you wouldnt end, somehow or rather.

2008-09-26T20:25:00.000-07:00

想你有時會缺氧,嘴角不自覺上揚.

這是不是幸福的現象,胸口微微的發燙.

想你有時會缺氧,臉紅呼吸不正常.

這是不是幸福的症狀,不知不覺又缺氧.

Hey, my dear readers. Haha. I realised that I had not post for quite a number of weeks already. Seriously, busy time for me. Been studying for weeks for the prelim tests.Oh my, seriously tiring. However, the end result is not really up to standard.

I got an C6 for my english, seriously, it is way down my expectation. I always thought I would get at least a B4 for it but this time round, quite disappointing.

Something to be happy of is my math. finally i passed my math with a B4 grade. Quite happy, i never passed math for a very long time already. Haha.

Science got a C5 after studying like mad but at least, i finally passed biology. I never passed before biology. Hahah. Got an A2 for chinese, was quite surprised by it because I thought I would get lower than this. Haha. Got an A1 for POA, my favourite subject. Hahaha.

Think i failed combined humans and f&n. My geography is the cause of it, i did not answer to the question. I just answer blindly. Zzzz I got 33/50 for SS. Quite happy, at least, what i memorised for SEQ is worthwhile. F&N is just normal, give up already. Lol.

Overall my ELR2B2 = 18 points.

Even if i minus the CCA bonus point, i got 17 points.

My courses COP is 10,11,12. Way way way far from it.

=/ SIGH.
After receiving this results, I had been asking myself what went wrong? Why did I still got this type of sucky marks despite me studying extra hard this few months before. I still did not get a reasonable answer. I'm really afraid that I will not be able to get into the courses I want. Now, is the last mile to chiong before 'O' Level. However, I getting more and more restless this few days. I am trying so hard to at least, hit 15 and below for 'O' Level. I really hope I can make it.

Hahaha. Wish me Luck uh. I will study very very very hard until the 'O' Level end!

Do you believe in fate? Well, I don't. However, I don't really know whether is it fated that whenever i am going to have plan with you, many problems will suddenly arised and I will need to cancel the meeting with you. Seriously, it happened quite a number of times already.

Is that really called "no fated" ? Lol. Maybe, it is really fated that I will not be able to teach you POA. Hahaha.

Hahah. But next week, hopefully I can. Haha.

Lastly, I would love to rmb the memories I had in this few years in secondary school.

I love my friends in school.

It includes schoolmates and classmates.

I love Amanda, Pearline, Joel and Wilbert very very very much!

My four years and counting on friendship with you all which I will treasure down the road.

I love my class very much too espesically the group of us who always go and have lunch together which includes Chloe, Yiwei, TingTing, Huiji, Kelly, Steph, Benjamin/DumbBoy, Chengwei/JapBoy, Jonathan/SBSM, ShaoHui, Weiming. I enjoyed spending time with you all!

Weiying, thanks for the time when you crap and laughed with me!

Yueping, Keith, Kargee, Yujun, Diana, thanks for letting me have such a wonderful time in the boring F&N lessons.

Hahah. Will I miss the times I have when I am in class? I think I will even though it is boring listening to the teachers talking. Hahah.

Wah, I am trying very hard to make my blog post long and I'm running short of things to write.

Hahaha.

Oh ya! After prelim, I watched one drama series called WHY WHY LOVE.

Damn nice, I love it alot. Hahaha.

I 3 days, chiong finish the 15 episodes!

Hahaha. Fast right?

HUO YAN(CHUAN YI) AND HUO DA( MIKE HE) are so so so so handsome and cute.

Hahaha. But I think I love MIKE HE more. Hahah. But the show really worth to watch.

Rating : 8.5/10 :D

AHHHH. WILBER PAN like so hot in this show? Hahah. His friend also quite cute. Hahah.

Very funny, this show. I watched episode 3 on Monday. I laughing so hard till my tears come out? Lol. I am so wating for episode 4! :D

Episode 9 is quite a disappointment though. Not really exciting.

I can't believe Jie-er is QIU GUI. Like so not her.

She covered her secerts well.

But as usual, Jerry and Show are very attractive to my eyes.

Hahahah. I am waiting for the next episode when Show knows who is QIU GUI.

BRENDA

Time is running out.

Will there be me and you after this moment?
Would you care when I am gone?

2008-09-08T16:45:00.000-07:00

Hahahah! Last night, I watched this show! Hahaha.
My Joe Jonas! Joe Jonas! Joe Jonas! My Boyfriend! I love him. He is very cute inside. Hahah
He dances, I can't believe. He is so cute!
Must watch, must watch. I am buying his soundtrack! Hahah.

Just finish watching episode 7. As usual, I am high. They are so cute.
Next episode seem interesting. Haha. Quite a number of new character coming in. Hahah.
So, I am waiting impatiently for episode 8! Haha.

BRENDA

You know when the sun forgets to shine, I'll be there to hold you through the night.
We'll be running so fast we could fly tonight and even when we're miles and miles apart.
You're still holding all of my heart, I promise it will never be dark.
I know we're inseparable.

Inseparable - JonasBrothers.

2008-09-01T14:40:00.000-07:00

Ohmygod. Street Basketball. You should see how Jerry played.

Made my heart beat fast.

Hahahah. Just finish watching episode 6.
As usual, I am hoping I can watch the next episode immediately. However, I need to wait for another week to watch it.

The saddest part is next week, I can't watch it because I got prelim.

Zzzzz. Hahah. Maybe, I will still watch it.

Hahah. I love love love the show.

"Super poor" Tsukushi Makino, finds herself attending the prestigious Eitoku High School and immersed in a world that is not her own. But she eventually falls in with a legendary foursome of ultra-privileged boys dubbed "F4" (for "Flower 4"). They consist of Tsukasa Domyoji, Rui Hanazawa, Sojiro Nishikado and Akira Mimasaka.
Tsukushi was initially in love with Rui, however, F4 leader Tsukasa soon wins her heart and proposed to her during the senior prom. After graduation, Tsukasa announced to the world that he is marrying Tsukushi. Tsukasa and Tsukushi are entrusted with a precious Domyoji family heirloom; a tiara “The Smile of Venus”. The gift is from Tsukasa's mother, who once was against their marriage.
In the night, a robber breaks into their room and disappears with the tiara. Losing the tiara ultimately means losing Tsukushi. Tsukasa must put marriage plans on hold until he can recover the heirloom. The trail to recover the tiara believed to bring its owner everlasting love and happiness takes Tsukushi and Tsukasa halfway around the world and back, to Las Vegas, Hong Kong and other far-flung destinations. And what about the rest of the F4 gang, who have seemingly gone their own ways since high school?

In Cinema, 4Sept2008

Oh my god. I want to watch can. But my prelim clash with it.

Sigh!!!! I will watch it after prelim then.

Hahaha!

So, Rui Hanazawa, Wait for me! Hahah.

BRENDA

You light up my life.

2008-08-29T16:30:00.000-07:00

Hey! Readers.

Today, we celebrated Teacher's Day in school. Hahah.

My last year celebrating teacher's day in school as a student. This feeling is quite sad. When the time come nearer and nearer to leave school, I want to cling on to the school gate, I don't want to leave. Sad uh. Hahah. Okokok, back to the celebration.

Early morning, we do exercise. Very complicated steps. Hahaha.

Me and Weiying anyhow do. Smart right?

Then we went back to class and eat. Went to find all the teacher to cut the cake that we bought. Hahah. Got take photo of all of them holding the knife.

Think got Miss Ross, Mdm Lee, Mr Ang, Mdm Chia, Miss Lin, Mr Khong. Mr Tan got come awhile but because he just played finish soccer, so he went to wash up. Hahaha.

Then cut the cake, eat the things then go and watch the concert.

Hahah.

After that, went to KFC to eat with Chloe, Yiwei, Huiji, TingTing, Steph, Kelly, Jonathan, Benjamin, Chengwei, Weiming and TeckChuan. Then I went home.

Hahaha. Studying for prelim soon.

Today, I shall study MATH and POA.

Hahaha. One dislike and like. Like this, my feeling will be more balanced.

Hahah.

Yeah, Created a radio on my blog. The buttons on the radio can press one.

Cool uh? Hahaha.

I uploaded all my favourite songs inside so enjoy!

BRENDA

如果再重来会不会稍嫌狼狈，爱是不是不开口才珍贵？

再给我两分钟，让我把记忆结成冰。

2008-08-25T17:31:00.000-07:00

Hot Shot, episode 5 done.
It's getting more interesting each time I watched.
Can't wait for the next one. ^^

BRENDA :D

I'm waiting for Episode 6. Haha.

2008-08-18T20:45:00.000-07:00

The thing about love, is i never saw it coming.

It kinda crept up and took me by surprise.

And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering,

Is this true, i want to hear it one more time.

Move in a little closer, take it to a whisper

Just a little louder, say it again for me

Because i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m the only one who blows your mind.

Say it again for me,

It’s like the whole world stops to listen, when you tell me you’re in love

Say it again.

Thing about you is you know just how to get me,

you talk about us like there’s no end in sight.

The thing about me is that i really want to let you,

Open that door and walk into my life.

Move in a little closer, take it to a whisper

Just a little louder, say it again for me

Because i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m the only one who blows your mind.

Say it again for me.

It’s like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you’re in love.

And it feels like it’s the first time,

That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain.

And never in my whole life, have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name.

Say it again for me.

Because i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m the only one who blows your mind. Say it again for me

It’s like the whole world stops to listen

When you tell me you’re in love

Say it again.

When you tell me you’re in love…

Say it again.

Lyrics from :Marie Digby -Say It Again.

BRENDA

I am praying and wishing for that very day.

ily, (:

I LOVE HOT SHOT.

EP.5, Can't wait. Hahaha.

P.S I am in love with HOT SHOT.

2008-08-12T21:26:00.000-07:00

Sigh. Quite disappointed with my 'O' level chinese results.

I got a B4 after months of preparing for it.

I cried in school. So malu. >.<

Thanks Chloe, TingTing, Yiwei, Benjamin & Chengwei for your concern.

And Wilbert, for telling me that B4 is not really bad but he thinks he will gets A1 if he sits for it.

Hahah.

And I decided to retake it, not like I got any choice.

Celebrate Weiying Birthday after school!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WEIYING!

Best Wishes to you!

And I smash some cake on her face.

I asked her for permission and she say yes after begging for so long. Hehe.

Went home with my result of B4. Lol.

When my parent say they don't blame me for my result because they know I tried my best.

I cried again. >.<

Then my parent told me that this is not the end of the world and after consoling by them, I felt so better. My brother and sister told me not to be sad too.

Haha. I am lucky to have them by my side.

:DDDDD

I am sad because I was like aiming to get at least B3 then I gotten B4.

ZZZZ. Hopefully, the second time will be better.

BRENDA

How I hope my time with you will never end.

2008-08-11T17:22:00.000-07:00

If we hold on together,

I know our dreams will never die.

Dreams see us through to forever.

Where clouds roll by,

For you and I.

Ahhhh! Tmr, chinese result will be out.

I am scared and nervous!

Ahhh! Lol. Lol. Lol.

Oh ya, changed of blog song.

Hahah. It is a song in the taiwan drama.

It's started with a kiss. I love this drama!!!!

Weeees~ Hahah.

Brenda (:

If only my story ends that way.

2008-08-08T17:12:00.000-07:00

If your sky is grey, oh let me know.
There's a place in heaven where we'll go.
If heaven is a million years away,
Oh just call me and I make your day.
When the nights are getting cold and blue.
When the days are getting hard for you,
I will always stay here by your side.
I promise you I'll never hide.

Looking at this picture made me feel so jealous of people living there.
I will go there someday so wait for me.

Hey guys! Haha. Today is the eve of National Day and also the ten anniversary of Junyuan!

Hahah. Yeah, today was a quite busy day for me.

It started yesterday, when Mdm Yang tell us to help her pack muffins so we decided to help her.
So, me, Yueping, Keith, Jasmine, YunQian, Jonathan, Kargee and Yujun decided to help her to pack the muffin until abt 7pm. Haha.

Then today, because me, Yueping, Keith, Diana and Jonathan don't want to go to the collect newspaper the activity.

We decided to help Mdm Yang. First, we went round the whole school to find her.

Then she told us to go and find the Parent Support Group and ask them whether they need any help. Then we went to the F&N room and cook fishballs. Lol.

Then I ate 9 fishballs because the parent told us to eat if we want to.

Hahah. Eat until scared ahh.

Hahah. Then after finishing making fishballs, we put on the table and realised that there are like 1000 fishballs left??? Hahah. Like fishball workshop. Funny funny.

After that, they told us to bring the fishballs down to the field.

Very heavy, you know? I bring one round then I dont want bring le. Scared le.

Haha. Then, we thought can rest le.

However, they tell us to go and keep the table cloth. Zzzzz.

After that, go give out muffins.

Then go and take things up the F&N room.

Tired, Tired, Tired.

After that, went to find them to go eat lunch.

Hahah.

Went to have lunch at Jack place with Yiwei, Ting Ting, Huiji, MinNing, Shao Hui and Chengwei.

We saw Mr Lee and Mr Ivan Tan and some other teachers there too.

Then, we keep saying that later bill come that time, we point to the table infront as they were sitting infront of us. Hahah.

After eating, went home.

Hahah. And now here am I, home.

I'm so tired.

Later, I am going to study math, math, math! ^^

Hahahah!

BRENDA

If only I can tell you how much I love you.

2008-08-06T16:00:00.000-07:00

Another disappointment.

Sigh, Sigh, Sigh.

What can I do though?

Nothing, apparently.

So, forget it.

Chinese 'O' Level result will be out soon.

So nervous. Teacher say it will be out on 12Aug, which is like next tuesday.

Hope I will get a A2, then I will not need to retest. But, I know I am dreaming.

Haha.

Okay, I am studying soon.

ZZZZ, Sians.

BRENDA

If only you know how much I want to be with you.

2008-08-05T18:47:00.000-07:00

Loves, Brenda.

Take care, guys!

No matter what happen, I will be happy.

(: Tmr, hahahah!

2008-08-04T20:50:00.000-07:00

Hey, guys!

I am here to blog a very short post. Doing coursework B and hating what am I doing. So sians la. Hahah. Oh, ya. I promised that I will promote QMBERRY SCHOOL.

It is a merge school.

Actually, it is QUI MOI SCHOOL formed by Mr.Keith Goh P.S whereas BERRY SCHOOL formed by Ms Ong Y.P but after discussing they decided to merge it.

And so this is the staff of the school.

Principal : MR KEITH GOH P.S

Vice-principal : MS ONG Y.P

SECRETARY: MS BRENDA AU X.Y

NURSE: MS NG Y.J

SCHOOL COUNSELLOR: MS PRIS LIEW R.X

STUDENT: MS TAN K.G

Lol. F&N is bored. That is why. Hahaha.

I hate coursework and the teacher too. Ask her how to do, she don't even care. All she care is those smart and hardworking one. Then she only kp us when we never do. Zzzz. Don't feel like going to her damn class at all. ARGH.

Suddenly, I got a feeling of sadness when I think of leaving junyuan secondary. All those fond memories, fun moments and crazy times I had with my friends and class. For all my life, I always thought that school is boring and wish to leave school as soon as possible. But, now is seem to be the last thing I want to do is to leave school and move on in life. Crazy thought. Hahah. Don't know why got this type of feeling. Hahah.

Okokok. I go back study le.

Actually wanted to changed my blogsong but I cant get in imeem.

Too bad, next time la.

Hahah.

BRENDA

Whenever our eyes meet, my heart jump a beat.

The feeling seem so unreal.

2008-08-02T18:52:00.000-07:00

Hey, guys!

It is Saturday and I am at home studying for the F&N TA2.

If I passed, Benjamin will treat me to any drinks. But he thinks he is going to save the money. I am trying hard now to prove him wrong.

Let pray that I will pass this test, first time pass leh.

Hahahah!

I am listening to When I'm Gone by Simple Plan.

I am falling in love with it.

Hahah. Hahah. Hahah.

And I changed my blogskin.

Nice? Nice? Nice?

I feel it is nice! Hahah.

My class has changed its seating arrangement and now we are sitting like we are in Parliament, having meeting which made me feel it is funny.

Prelims is coming very soon and the stress I am getting is heavier each day.

Hope I will study harder than I am studying now.

I missed the times when we are all friends and we went out to have fun.

And everytime we are together, we are joking and enjoying ourselves. Where had all those fun moments gone?

Now, what I left, is a bunch of useless memories.

I hope you forgive him and I hope he still want to be friends with us.

Well, I will be back studying soon.

So, cya soon and I am going to enjoy tmr because I am going out.

BRENDA (:

Knowing it is impossible, I still hoplessly fall for you.

I am rmb-ing all the times I had with you.

2008-07-21T17:01:00.000-07:00

HEY, everyone.

I had came back early today cause I did not go to SS remedial.

Was not feeling quite well.

Sorry, Chloe.

I feel bad ps-ing you.

I know you will miss me. Hahaha.

Sigh. Well, as prelim is round the corner.

I am studying at any extra time, I have.

But my health doesn't cooperate with me.

Hope things will get better soon.

Things are getting really quiet since both of them fall apart.

I don't know what to say or who to side.

Just wish things will get better too.

Maths, when will I be your friend?

Hahah. Sorry, I am doing math now.

And seriously speaking, it sucks.

Hahaha.

Okay, off I go to study.

Take care, guys.

BRENDA D:

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be.

Listening to this song now.

It made me think of the past and how we used to be.

I'm sorry. I just can't forget about everything.

2008-07-02T22:06:00.000-07:00

Well, I am posting a post about my downstream life.

Zzzzz. This is a nice post, not sad post so we shall start the journey!

#1. MOCK TESTS.

I had done my worst in the entire sec3 and 4 of my exams. Well, failed all subject except geography. Cool huh? I was so damn sad and angry of myself, okay?

I did study leh!!!!!!! ARGH. Me and Chloe is the same.

Study also fail, Don't study also fail.

So what should we do?

Hahahah. We don't know too.

#2. CHINESE 'O' LEVEL ORAL.

My oral is this friday. Ahhhh~ I am abit nervous though but I dont feel like studying for it. Hahahah. Maybe, I should phrase it this way, I don't have the time to study for it.

I am busy uh!

#3. Form-teacher.

Well, my form teacher is such a unreasonable freak. I hate the way she just don't give reason and then she say so sorry hor, blah blah blah blah.

So that day, I decided to copy her ways of speaking but I say too loud.

Opps! She heard it. I don't really care though.

Hahahah!

#4. Biology Teacher.

Well, my class will be seperated into half for biology lesson.

One class taken by Ms Lin, another taken by Mdm Punitham. o.O

So, it is by results, top 20 with Ms Lin. Last 20 with Mdm Punitham.

So, me and Chloe feel our fate is to be with Mdm Punitham. So pathetic right?

Well, I was doing quite well with Ms Lin. She teach quite well. I was going to pass biology exam already, now if change teacher sure fail again. ARGH.

Chloe agree with me. She give a example that made me laugh.

She say, it is like pulling someone out of the drain, then want to come out le right, she pushed the someone back the drain again.

Hahah! Funny right? I feel it is so laugh!

#5. F&N.

I HATE F&N ! I HATE F&N ! I HATE F&N!

!#$%^&*()*#$@$%&*())_*^%

Now, start with coursework B le.

I not happy with her la. She scold me for what sia? I don't think I did something wrong lor.

At least, I did pass up coursework A on time, okay?

I finish it before the deadline, okay?

I went back for every F&N holiday extra lesson okay?

I just can't rmb F&N theory so I failed ever F&N theory test.

AND PLEASE DON'T SAY I AM LAZY!

#6. SHOO BEE DO WA, my new band.

Hahah. You know who is Jacky Wu?

Well, we are now is his old band called SHOO BEE DO WA.

AH SHOO - YIWEI!

AH BEE - WEIYING!

AH DO - CHLOE!

AH WA - BRENDA!

We are now preparing our debut album so please support! Hahahah.

Some of our song :

1. SHOO BEE DO WA.

2. ALAMAK.

3. APOLOGIZE.

4. 千里之外.

And more....

Hahahah. Well, we are just too bored in class.

#7. National Accounting Quiz.

Hahaha. Tml, is that quiz. I am now preparing for it. Doing other school paper MCQ.

I am hardworking right?

So tml, I am leaving school early to go to Ngee Ann Poly to do that quiz.

Only 8 students going only, divided into 2 grps.

1st grp: Shermaine, Jasmine, Nisarat and me.

Well, I think... I wouldnt be able to help much. Lol.

2nd grp: Weiming, Jonathan, Benjamin and Chengwei.

Hahaha. Wish us luck uh!

(: (: (: I had done 5 POA PAPER ONE LE.

I am so tired ahhh!

Well, I just end here. Cya guys soon!!!!

BRENDA

At times, I felt so lost.

Well, nobody just understands.

Sometime, I just wish that things hasn't turn for the worst.

ily, you know.

2008-06-25T19:45:00.000-07:00

School sucks. Exam sucks. Life sucks.

Well, send me to some place that I can shut myself off.

I am feeling miserable when I don't even know what happen.

I don't want to go to school.

I don't want to have exam anymore.

Today, I had shut myself from the outside world.

Don't bother reaching me cause I am currently unavailable.

This is some kind of shit post, I know.

But if I don't vent my frustration here, I dunno where to vent it anymore.

So cya, I am off studying, yes. STUDYING AGAIN.

Sucky 'O' Level Exams.

BRENDA :/ } I am moodless.

Stop! Tell me the truth.

Cause i'm so confused.

Spinning round, these walls are falling down and I need you.

More than you know, I'm not letting go.

I'm getting close, so take my hand.

And please just tell me why.

Pushing me Away - JonasBrothers.

2008-06-22T22:12:00.000-07:00

如果你眼神能够为我片刻的降临

如果你能听到心碎的声音

沉默的守护着你沉默的等奇迹

沉默的让自己像是空气

大家都吃着聊着笑着今晚多开心

最角落里的我笑得多合群

盘底的洋葱像我永远是调味品

偷偷的看着你偷偷的隐藏着自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心

你会发现你会讶异

你是我最压抑最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心

你会鼻酸你会流泪

只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们暧昧的空气

我和我的绝望装得很风趣

我就像一颗洋葱永远是配角戏

多希望能与你有一秒专属的剧情

Changed my blog song.

What a nice song. I love the lyrics :D

Hahah. Happy listening.

Goodnight, guys.

And yes, school sucks (:

BRENDA

I try and try but my obsession won't let me leave.

2008-06-18T21:30:00.000-07:00

" DANG DANG DANG DANG , may I have your attention please ? "

Okay okay okay, I know I have yr attention already. Hahahah.

Today, my highlight of the post is a boy from Japan. Hahaha.

As you know I am from China, We exchange our culture and experiences of our country.

And blah blah blah.

And his name is CHENGWEI.

For more info, please visit www.clickifuthinkimsmart.blogspot.com

JAP BOY :DDDD Hahahah. He say this is the smartest photo he have.

Don't you feel the guy beside the smart guy cute????

Awwww, I am going Japan to find him. Lmao.

I sians until going crazy.

So please find something for me to do!!!!!

And ya, my blog is proudly to be official blog supporting his movie,

GET CHENGWEI.

but actually is GET SMART, he thinks too much already.

End of my post :D

BRENDA :D

2008-06-09T19:17:00.000-07:00

Tried to take a picture of love.

Didn't think I'd miss her that much,

I want to fill this new frame but it's empty.

Tried to write a letter in ink.

It's been getting better, I think.

I got a piece of paper but it's empty

It's empty.

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard.

Maybe we're torn apart,

Maybe the timing is beating our hearts.

We're empty.

And I even wonder if we should be getting under these sheets.

We could lie in this bed but it's empty.

It's empty

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard.

Maybe we're torn apart,

Maybe the timing is beating our hearts.

We're empty.

Oh ohOh ohOoooohOh ohOh oh

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard.

Maybe we're torn apart,

Maybe the timing is beating our hearts.

We're empty, We're empty, We're empty.

Empty - TheClickFive.

BRENDA :/

Seriously, I need a break from everything.

Why can't I just forget you?

Why is it so difficult?

It had been over a year.

What a sad thing to think abt though.

My feelings, so numb.

2008-06-04T23:16:00.000-07:00

Wwweeeeellllll, I am so so so so busy.

Everyday, I feel so tired. Ahhhh!

Quick quick quick, let me go oversea and take a break from studies.

I am studying so hard yet the results are so sucky. I failed my SS Mock Exam. It is like the first time I fail SS exam, you know? But the class only got a few passes but it is still saddening.

Sigh. Today, it is the last day of the holiday programme. I am overjoyed. BUT I must go back to school tml for F&N.

Yes, say until F&N. I had been rushing my coursework and it is like so so so so so **** that all the comment teacher gave is so negative. I doubt I will score well for it.

Sigh. Sometime, I don't know why are we studying so hard for?

I got a thought before. Why don't I stop studying, leave my house and go for a trip all over the world, stopping at different countries finds some part time job, learn about their culture and when I earned enough in the countries, I will move on to other countries. Sound so fun right???

The first country I go is Italy, Venice. Hahahah. Oh my, that small little island seem so beautiful. The second country I go is Italy, Rome. Oh my, I will go there and say "Ciao! " to everyone. Hahahah! I will love these life. Don't you feel that we should live life like this.

I should go to the NEW ZEALAND and rear sheep. I be Shepherd. I don't mind. Running with the sheep on a big green field. Oh my, how relaxing.

Hahahah. Okokokok, I shouldnt carry my thought so so so far.

Today, Went to Tmall with Chloe, Weiying, Yiwei, Ting Ting, Huiji, Benjamin, Chengwei, Shao Hui, Weiming and Teck Chuan. Hahah. Then we went to Food court, so so many ppl. No place to sit, then Chloe damn clever, see a table ppl coming up, she chiong there. Hahaha. Therefore, we had our sits very fast. Hahah. After that, went to watch Weiying and Yiwei dance PARA PARA. Lol. I must say, I am like really pei fu them. They dare to dance when so so many people seeing them. If it is me, I tell you. I will faint there. Hahah.

Then after that, went back to school for english course. Hahah.

And my braces colour now is PURPLE AND WHITE. Hahah. My mouth is damn painful cause it is full of ulcers. Ahhhh!

Oh ya. And today they are going off to Japan. If I am going, I will be at the airport now. Sigh. And not stuck with my f&n coursework. Lol. Anyway, I will miss them. Hahah

Hope they have a good trip! Bon Voyage.

Okay, I am tired now. Will stop here.

Goodnight, my readers (:

BRENDA

I am too dumb to feel anything.

All I know is that I miss you.

I loved the way you felt so strong

I never wanted you to leave

I wanted you to stay here holding me

[CHORUS:]

I miss you, I miss your smile.

And I still shed a tear every once in a while.

And even though it's different now, you're still here somehow.

My heart won't let you go.

And I need you to know I miss you, I miss you :/

You used to call me your dreamer, and now I'm living out my dream.

Oh how I wish you could see, everything that's happening for me

I'm thinking back on the past.

It's true that time is flying by too fast.

Extracted from " I MISS YOU" by Hannah Montana.

2008-05-27T20:33:00.000-07:00

Some of my current favourite songs.

And I recommend you go and listen to these songs.

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace.

And in this world of loneliness, I see your face.

Yet everyone around me, thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you.

They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth.

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing, you cut me open

And I keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love, you cut me open.
And it's draining all of me.

Oh they find it hard to believe, I'll be wearing these scars

For everyone to see.

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

Oh This is an S.O.S.

Don't wanna second guess,

This is the bottom line

It's true, I gave my all for you, now my heart's in two.

And I can't find the other half, It's like I'm walking on broken glass,better believe I bled.

It's a call I'll never get.

Next time I see you, I'm giving you a high five'cause hugs are over rated, just FYI.

Jonas Brothers - SOS

It's kinda funny how life can change.

Can flip 180 in a matter of days, sometimes love works in a mysterious ways.

One day you wake up gone without a trace.

I refused to give up, I refused to give in.

You're my everything.

I don't wanna give up, I don't wanna give in.

Oh no, Everybody sings.

One love - for the mother's pride.

One love - for the times we cried.

One love - gotta stay alive.

I will survive

One love - for the city streets.

One love - for the hip-hop beats.

One love, Oh I do believe.

One love is all we need.

BLUES - One Love.

Ooooohhh yea ooooh yea.

If the heart is always searching, can you ever find a home?

I've been looking for that someone, I can't make it on my own.

Dreams can't take the place of loving you, there's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you love me.

Everything's alright, when you're right here by my side.

When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven.

I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes.

JONAS BROTHERS - When you look me in the eyes.

I close the door, like so many times, so many times before.

Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor, I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word.

I try to sleep, yeah. But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me.

A thousand more regrets unraveling.

OOoh, if you were here right now, I swear I'd tell you this.

Baby I don't wanna waste another day.

Keepin it inside, it's killing me.

Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you.

I wish that I could find the words to say.

Baby I would tell you, every time you leave.

I'm inconsolable.

BACKSTREET BOYS - Inconsolable

BRENDA (:

Baby, you are my fairytale.

ily, Bp.

2008-05-26T22:50:00.000-07:00

Heyheyheyhey.

Miss me? I know you all did. Hahah. I am too busy or too tired to post.

So, I'm sorry to keep you all waiting for me.

#1. MOCK EXAMS.

I am left with POA and Chemistry Mock Test. But I think, I will do badly for mock exams esp. math and biology. Hahah. Sians. So damn difficult. And math teacher say that in class, only 3-4 ppl passed math paper. So, of course, I am the in the failing grp. Hahah. I told my mum and I laughed very loudly. She think it is funny that I am laughing even when I am failing. I think it is funny too. Hahah. I should cry huh. Hahahah!

#2. SICHUAN EARTHQUAKE

Sigh. I am so sad about it. Luckily, my friends and relatives in Sichuan are all alright. I email-ed them almost everyday and the way they describe what they are going through break my heart. The loss of life like this is so tragic. Nobody there knows that the next day, they will lost everything they have, their loves one, their house or even, their lives. Watching the news and also the newspaper made me want to cry. The way their parent grieving for their children and the way their parent protect their child by risking their life, all this made me realise that parent's loves cannot be compare with anything. This touched my heart alot. What's more, life is not only fragile but also strong. When I see so many corpses lie on the ruins, the blood becomes river, and the smell of blood fills the air. I can hardly imagine how cruel it is. At that moment life seems weak. But when more and more people are rescued, they create the miracle of life, some of them even buried in the ruins for more than 190 hours. Now life seems the strongest thing in this world. What I learn from this whole thing is cherish those that are around before they are gone forever. I really hope I can do something for them. I really hope to go there and give moral support to those students who had been traumatised by this incident. But, I know my parent will never allow me to do that. Hahah. So, all I can do now is to pray that they will overcome this thing and continue with their life and also to build their hometown as soon as possible.

God Bless Them (:

#3. Big Breakfast on Friday.

Hahahah! I had a fun day. But I didnt eat any foods though. Hahahha, the food looks abit scary. Hahah. So, our class decided to play a game call CHOP CHILLI CHOP CHOP. Hahaha. Funny la. Lose one must forfeit. Hahaha. I pay lot of attention la cause I always lose de. Hahah. But that day, I didnt lose. Hahah!!!!!! Then play hit butt game. Then Benjamin say let hit Shao Hui Butt. In the end, he ps me and I hit Shao Hui Butt myself. He gives me the idea de la! Hahah.

So happy cause don't need study then after school meet up with Joel Low. But he is sad cause of his gf. Sigh, dont be sad la. Dont care her, must be happy, understand????

Oh ya. I also saw him. He came back to school. Hahah. Of course, I was high. But sadly, I just saw his backview. His backview is still look hot to me Hahahahah :DDDDDD/

#4. CHINESE 'O' LEVEL o.O

Hahah. Had it this morning. I was abit nervous though. Hahah. But after that not really le. What can I say? The paper is not easy but also not difficult too. Hahaha. No comment. Dont want to think about it. Hahah. Went to eat with the girls after that. Hahah. Pearline try to be funny, tell the uncle she want tiger beer? Lmao. Then the uncle feel pissed off by her. Hahah. But it was really funny. Hahah.

Eh. I got nothing to post le. Will write again. I must go to school tml at 8am. Holiday leh!!!! Until 5pm la. I'm sad. Hahahah.

BRENDA LOVE JOE JONAS :D

I LOVE WATCHING DISNEY CHANNEL :D

I LOVE TO HEAR ONE LOVE BY BLUES.

2008-05-21T22:38:00.000-07:00

Oh my god!

I am seriously crushing on Joe Jonas from the JONAS BROTHERS.

He is so so so so damn cute! Ahhh!~

Hahahah. He is my boyfriend, you know????

Hahhahaha! I am in love (: Lol.

My current favourite song had been updated. Hahah. I love this song and of course it is sang by Jonas Brothers.

Heheheh!

Oh ya, they are also having a original Disney movie call Camp Rock. Hahah. I am looking forward to it. Hahahah!

Oh ya. I am seriously flunking my math and biology Mock Exam. Sad la. I study until like siao, then the paper so difficult. Ahh!!!

Got back my chinese mock exam result.

Paper 1 : 49.5 / 70

Paper 2 : 47.5 / 70

Hahah. I am happy with my result cause I expected lower than this though.

Hahahah. This friday, got BIG BREAKFAST~ Wees` Don't need to study the whole day. Hahaha. I am happy!

BRENDA (:

This is an S.O.S.

Don't wanna second guess

This is the bottom line

It's true,

I gave my all for you

Now my heart's in two

And I can't find the other half

It's like I'm walking on broken glass

Better believe I bled

It's a call I'll never get

P.S In this song, JOE JONAS LOOKS SO DAMN HOT in that video. Hahaha.

2008-05-15T23:11:00.000-07:00

Singapore Flyer.

One day, I will sit this.

Goodnight, Readers !

Loves :D

2008-05-12T21:24:00.000-07:00

Once again, the feelings all rush back to me.

I knew, I am still in love with you.

Sigh, sometime it is so easy to just talk to you and forget about the fact that you don't feel the same way I feel for you.

Talking to you, I always had those butterfly stomach and hyper-ing mood. Those feelings only happened when I talk to you.

I promise to forget about you, but I missed you too much.

I talk to you again and I know that I am happy about it.

I really hope to see you again. I really hope to be in the same school as you again.

I just ask that I can talk you as often as I can.

I just ask for that. I don't need you to have the feeling I have for you.

Just talking to you make me feel contended.

I am silly though, I know that.

Lastly, I just want you to know that I really like you.

Really really really like you. Never have I felt this strong for anyone.

I love you (:

1year3months16days ♥

BRENDA :D

LOVE ; You make me fall for it.

2008-05-08T21:52:00.000-07:00

Boos! Got nothing better to do so went to play quiz again. Hahah.

And come over this quiz, decided to try it. Hahah. And it says me till like I will not find my love again. I merely can't forget him, for the time being. Hahah.

Your Heart is Feeling Indifference

Your heart is pretty much on hiatus right now.
You're not particularly interested in love, and you're cultivating a sort of romantic apathy.
Whether you've been burned badly or you're just burned out, your heart is cold to passion.

Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: A bit of cold heartedness.

Your current outlook on love: Detached and stoic - you try to analyze love from a logical perspective.

Your love life will improve if you: Open up a little. Stepping back can help you find peace with your emotions, but it can also make you repress them.

Watch out for: Too much cynicism. Indifference can lead you down a dark path.

Will be back soon,

BRENDA : D

Sometime in the night, I still will think of you. And tears just crashed around me.

Ice-cream cure my heart-brokness.

2008-05-05T22:00:00.000-07:00

Hahahahah! Back back back back from my planet, MARS.

Let me let you a little facts about my planet.

First, Mars is very near Earth.

Second, Mars is the forth planet from the sun.

Third, Mars has pink sky due to the tiny pieces of dust floating in the atmosphere.

So, in 1997, two Viking spacecraft visited Mars, but no sign of life was found because I hide behind a rock, dont let them see me. Lmao!

Even though Mars has freezing temperatures, little air and no surface area, it is believed that the planet could have and can hold life.

Lastly, Mars has two moons.

Hahah.

The End of Mars Facts.

So, one day, I suppose, you can join my in MARS.

Okay, back back back to the updates in my current busy life. Hahah.

Evon, You should be glad that I am entertaining you. Hahahah!

#1. MOCK TESTS.

Lmao. Mock test all like running toward me. I cannot breathe. Hahah. I must study like crazy again. No different with no Mid-year. Mock Tests is like Mid-year. Hahah.

Dates of the Mock Tests.

Chinese Mock Test : 14 May 2008

Mathematics Mock Test : 20 May2008

Biology Mock Test : 21 May 2008

Chemistry Mock Test : 30 May 2008

And almost all is after school. That is the time when I shut my brain la!!! Ahh!~ How? Hahah.

Damn all the tests.

#2. FRIDAY STUDY TIME.

Last friday was the first session of study time with Amanda. She suppose to teach me algebra but at last I teach her Probability. And we went to have Mac Dessert after that. Hahah. And she is totally in " IN LOVE " mode. Then, I saw last time me. LMAO. This friday, will be having again and I will tell her to teach me algebra. Hahah.

#3. Dental Appointment.

Hahah. Today was my monthly dental appointment and I change my braces colour to BLUE. No more Pink. Hahah. But Blue is nice too. Hahah. Luckily, it is not pain anymore. If not I sure dulan, cause it is really irritating. Hahah. But whoever who want to put it, I must tell you, for the first few weeks, it is damn bloody pain. Hahah! So if you want, bear with it!

#4. F&N

Hmmmm. I had lend Pearline Ng Pei Ling name for the subject of my coursework. Hahah. And I am cooking for her. The menu of the day is :

- POTATO SALAD

- EASY BAKED CHICKEN & FRIED RICE

- MUSHROOM SOUP

- PEACH SMOOTHIES

- SAGO PUDDING

Full-course meal indeed. Hahah. Sound delicious right? Hahah. I hope I won't burn down the kitchen though.

But whatever I do all this, I think of the past past past.

Sigh ://// What a unhealthy thought. Hahah.

#5. They kissed again!

I finish the watching all the esposide and I must say I still love this drama so much! Next time, please let me find a husband like ZhiShu. Lmao! He is so sweet. Aww, when Xiangqin went missing. Wow, his reactions damn big and he truly love her. Ahhh!~ But no ending though. Maybe got Part 3 ?? I am keeping my hopes up that there is!

ZhiShu, I love you! :D

#6. Library Books.

Hahah. I had finished my 4 books and Weiying still haven finished yet and Yiwei worst, last last time de books also haven finish. Hahah. I read one book called The Salem Witch Tryouts by Kelly McCLYMER. Nice, nice, nice! The girl is a witch and they very cool one. They do classwork, write on the air de. Hahah. Homeworks, they use laptop though. Hahah. They are never late for classes, cause the school very special, always turn them into the correct classroom automatically. Hahah. Cool right? If my school like this, I will be glad to go to school. Hahah. They travel home by their lockers. Hahaha.

#7. BRAZILIAN NAMES.

My brazilian name is
Fabíola Tavare.

Hahah.

Benjamin's brazilian name is

Paulo Santoro.

LOL, Cool right? Hahah.

#8. My current favourite.

My current favourite song is Gotta Go my Own Way, which is my blog song. Hahah.

Nice Song. And of course, I know the song since last year when I thought he was the one though. But it turn out that he is not and it is kinda of sad. :/

LYRICS :D

Gabriella: I gotta say what’s on my mind

Something about us doesn’t seem right…these days

Life keeps getting in the way

Whenever we try

Somehow the plan is always rearranged

It’s so hard to say

But I gotta do what’s best for me

You’ll be okay…

CHORUS

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am

I just don’t belong here

I hope you understand

We might find our place in this world someday

But at least for nowI gotta go my own way

Gabriella: Don’t wanna leave it all behind

But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall every time

Another color turns to grey

And it’s just too hard…to watch it all…slowly fade away

I’m leavin’ today’

Cause I gotta do what’s best for me

You’ll be okay

Chorus

Troy: What about us?

What about everything

we’ve been through?

Gabriella: What about trust?

Troy: You know I never wanted to hurt you

Gabriella: What about me?

Troy: What am I supposed to do…

Gabriella: I gotta leave but I’ll miss you

Troy: …miss you

Chorus (Repeat)

And whatever I watch the movie, come to this part, I sure cry. Dunno why, it's sad.

Don't you feel so?

#9. SLAPPED MY ASS.

And of course, my ass is slapped by Yiwei, Weiying and Chloe. And I am not able to hit any back. Dunno why. Hahah. And they slapped real hard. Lmao. Esp. Weiying. Want me to send you all lawyer letters????? Sue you all to COURT. Send you all to Jail for molesting my ass!

And ya, if WM take my photos again, I am sure to break his hands. AHHH!~

Till here, Readers. Will update real soon.

BRENDA / MARS Princess.

Lol. What a cute name. MARS PRINCESS :D

Bye & take care.

I really thought you were, but you aren't.

2008-05-05T19:36:00.000-07:00

What my name Means?

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.
You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.
You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Saw Weiying Blog then decided to try it too. Mine, turn out so so so long. Lmao.

Some of it true, some part is not really true. Hahah.

I will post later abt my week if I am have feeling for it.

Hahaha (:

Cya later or next time.

BRENDA / MISS CLEVER.

2008-04-29T22:44:00.000-07:00

" Brenda, you may alight from the spaceship T1135J. You had safely reached Earth! "

>.< * Door open *>.<

HEYHEYHEYEHEYHEYHEY.

I am back!!!! With my updates, of course.

Evon should be glad :D Hahah.

#1. Doddy, my friend.

What a cute dog. And he is also very friendly. Wont bark at people. Hahah. He loves to pee. He pee everywhere. Lmao. Then, he pee le, he kick the soil then always kena chloe. LOL Chloe is pissed off by it. Hahah. And he shared my saliva today. Hahah. I gave him my last bit of ice-cream. Awww, what a cute dog. I wish I have one too.

#2. AN OLD BALD MAN.

What a irratating old bald man that happpens to work in my school. He caught me eating in class or should I say having food in class and send me to that damn room. ^%*&^(*&(^ That is the first time in so so so long I went in. Still the same hot and boring room. Hahah. But I was not angry with him taking my EZ-link card, but angry of him taking my food away. Hahah. But at last, he still return me so I not angry le la. Hahah. But seriously, I will never put my foods on the table again.

#3. OUTING WITH THEM.

Went out with Joel Low, Pearline Ng and Amanda Ong. Hahah. Had fun. However, all this made me think of the past. When the six of us went out together. Sigh. What a sad thing. Hahah. Dont think about it. Things changed alot. We went to eat lunch and walk ard, just like last time. :DDDDD And I finally, saw the photo. Hahah. Awww, Joel Low.

#4. PIANO :D

We loves piano. Hahah. Weiying and Yiwei crazy about it. Everyday after school, want to go and play it. Lmao. I cannot tahan them. Hahah. They can play for hours. Ting Ting teaching them how to play Marriage D'amour. Quite a nice song. Hahah.

#5. MARVEL CHARACTERS.

Hahah. My class got alot of Marvel comics characters. The name is depend on our names start with letter what. Hahah. So, I am BATGIRL, cause my name start with BBBBBB. Hahah. Then Benjamin is Batman. Chloe is Catwoman. Chengwei is Cyclops. Weiying is Wonderwoman. Shao Hui is Superman. Hahahah. Cool right?

But then we can't find any suitable one for Yiwei so we called her Cruella De Vil. Hahah. Cause she is as evil as her. Hahah. Just For Laugh :D

#6. BIG BANG :DDDD

Hahah. Today Chloe very high, she made me high too. She let me hear a korean hip-hop band call Big Bang. Then, she teach me how to dance. Hahahah. So so so fun. Then, we keep singing it to Weiying, " Big Bang is back! " cause the rest is in korean, we dunno how to sing. Then she gives us the dulan face. Hahah.

Till here then. I am sleeping soooooooooooonnnnnnnn!

So, goodbye & I will post again.

Loves, BRENDA.

* Departing from Earth, back to MARS. *

THE END OF THE POST :D

2008-04-21T17:00:00.000-07:00

You said goodbye,

I fell apart.

I fell from all we had,

To I never knew I needed you so bad.
You need to let things go.

I know, you told me so I've been through hell,

To break the spell.
Why did I ever let you slip away?

Can't stand another day without you,

Without the feeling, I once knew.
I cry silently,

I cry inside of me.

I cry hopelessly,

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again.

I cry cause you're not here with me.

I cry cause I'm lonely as can be.

I cry hopelessly,

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again.

Extracted from I cry by Shayne Ward.

Seriously, just bring me back back back back to MARS.

I do not want to think anymore.

Suck, suck, suck.

I had blocked you, seem like i had lose all my hopes.

Thanks for the memories though.

OneyearTwomonths21days.

Even though Inever talk to you anymore,

but it just seem like ytd that I have know you.

Goodbye & I miss you :\

2008-04-18T20:52:00.000-07:00

BANGBOOMBANGBOOM!

I am back from MARS. Hahah. I know everyone miss me! Hahah.

I shall update about what happened this week in school or outside school. Hahah.

#1. I HATE MONDAY, but LOVE WEEKEND.

Hahah. Seriously, I LOVE weekend. You dunno how happy whenever the week ends! Hahah. But this mean chinese 'O' level is coming real soon. ARGH! !^*&($#$%( I am scared! Lol. What I don't like about school is because everyday must do homework and in class do work, do work, do work, do until sians! Hahah. So that's why I don't like that place.

#2. YIWEI AND WEIYING SHOULD JOIN GOT TALENT!

They seriously need to join that event to show off their talent. They sing weirdly by pulling their neck. Lol. Chloe and I think that our skin are too stiff to pull it. So, we did not join them. Hahah. But we still dance! HAHAH!

#3. F&N suck-ed.

I hate that subject! I WANT TO DROP DROP DROP DROP DROP DROP THAT SUBJECT. Whenever I say that in class, Keith will laugh. I also dunno why. Hahah. All I should just absent on that day of F&N 'O' level. And this is a very funny things that happened to me on Monday. I went to that damn F&N test without touching my textbook. And when I finished, I wanted to pass up to Mdm Teo cause I want to go home fast. Then she come, she showed me the good sign.

Then she opened up my paper, then she say " Wow, So little? I thought 4e6 should always have good answer. " Lmao. Then Keith laugh at me! Lmao. Like I want to tell her, I had been failing since the first test I had when I was in Sec Three. HAHAH!

#5. EATING WITH MY DANCE GRP.

Hahah. Chloe Chiew is so motherly. She feels that I eat too slow, so she help me cut up my chicken chop. LOL Then she say I eat like never bite. I got la! HAHAH. AND WEIYING LOVES TOMYAM. I think her birthday, I just TOMYAM MAGGIE MEE FOR HER, CAN LE. HAHAH:D Eat with them also lots of jokes. Hahah. Keep laughing and laughing :D Thanks for making me happy!

#6. WENT OUT WITH BFF.

I went out with Pearline and Amanda. Have fun and we talk alot. Hahah. It been ages that we had a chat like that. I miss-es it so much! Hahah. Then went to buy my sister's birthday present! Hahah. I walk until damn tired, I still dunno what to buy for her. Pathetic. Then finally, feel that buying necklace will be good, so I bought it! Hahah. Hopes she will like it :D

#6. BUFFET!

Hahah. I had been thinking of the buffet I am going to eat tml, like since Monday. SO I am going forward to it. TOMORROW! I can think of all the food I am going to eat, you know?! HAHAH. Siao le, I am so, PIG. Hahah.

#7. HOMEWORK.

THIS WEEKEND IS FREE OF HOMEWORK!!! HAHAHAH. I AM SO SO SO SO HAPPY :D Don't need to do homework! Hahah.

#8. THINKING AND THINKING.

This week, had think alot alot alot alot. Seriously, I always hope he will talk to me again like last time when I know that it will never happen again. It is sad to know the reality in life. I always thought that if I continue talking to you, I will not care whether you even liked me anot. But now, you don't even online anymore. The feeling is just like I just lost someone that I really like. HA-HA-HA! I am not emo-ing. Just that if I say out, I will feel better. :D So bear with it.

#9. PE LESSON.

I run so fast today. First time. And I passed NAFA TEST. Yeah!~ I felt better after running. Everything just fly away from your brain when you are running! KEITH GOH AND JONATHAN KEEP BLOCKING ME FROM RUNNING. SLAP YOU ALL LA! Hahahah.

Back to MARS soon,

BRENDA :D

愛情是一種怪事　我開始全身不受控制

愛情是一種本事　我開始連自己都不是

為你我做了太多的傻事　

第一件就是為你寫詩為你寫詩　為你靜止　

為你做不可能的事為你我學會彈琴寫詞　

為你失去理智為你寫詩　為你靜止　

為你做不可能的事為你彈奏所有情歌的句子　

我忘了說　最美的是你的名字

我什麼都能忘記　但唯一不忘是你的名字

我什麼都能忘記　但唯一不忘是你的樣子

為你寫詩：吳克群 :D

P.s This is my current favourite song! x3333

2008-04-13T21:44:00.000-07:00

BOOOOS!

Hahahah. I am back from MARS. Did I tell you, I am from mars? I love MARS. Hahahha. I am bored la! I just update you abt what happened this week.

#1. PICNIC is so common now.

Can you imagine eating cereal and milk in class? Hahah. 4e6 had done that! Hahah. Chengwei bought milk. Yiwei bought cereal. Then we eat one mouth of cereal, then drink one mouth of milk. Damn funny la! But who tell the school to make our recess so late. Hahah :D So, we got no choice but to eat in class! Hahahah.

#2. I am proud to announce that I had grown taller.

Hahah! I had grown taller! I am now proudly 154cm. Hahahah. I am happy! Taller than Weiying by 2cm. HAHAH! She had not grown taller. Don't be sad. I had lost weight too! Hahah. 4kg lost. Cool right? Hahah.

#3. Dances, we love to!

Hahah. Chloe, Yiwei and Weiying loves to dance. They teach me how to dance. LOL! We dance, Shao Hui & Benjamin feel that it is very funny. Hahah. Benjamin laugh till he become red. LOL Chengwei saw us, he felt shocked, Funny la. But it is fun lor. Mr Ang feel we are funny too. He say us crazy girls. Cause we finish his works, so we dance. HAHAH!

#4. JAPAN trip.

Should I go to the japan trip? My dad encouraged me to go. He say he sponsor me. But then like only 30 people is allowed to go to that trip? Later only me get chosen, then I will be sians lor. But then I feel like going. Lmao. Hope that we need to pay below $1000. If not, I feel it is a waste of money. Hahaha. But I feel like going!!!! Hahah. I shall think about it. :D

#5. Lots of homeworks.

There is lots and lots of homeworks. I am doing like for the whole weekend? But I still left one more to go. Very sians sia. Hahahah. I am like so tired la! Tired of homeworks! I am jealous that Benjamin finishes his homework very fast! Lmao.

#6. Different Form of Love.

Hahah! Pointing middle finger is a form of love, according to Chloe. Hahah. And so I tell her that if I say " Fuck you" meaning I love her. So, it is trend to have people in class saying fuck you and pointing middle finger nowadays.

#7. BENJAMIN YEAP.

Hahahah! He is a dumb boy! And He is called 大白熊！What a cute nickname right? But he feel it is dumb. HAHAHA :D Cool right? And he thinks too much! He hopes to have... Hahaha. Don't say la. He say he will be embarrassed! HAHAH :D

#8. THEY CAME TO MY HOUSE TO STUDY TODAY :D

Chloe, Yiwei, Weiying, Ting ting and Huiji came to my house today! Actually downstairs. Hahah. My house very noisy la. So went to cosy corner to study. Hahah. We study okay? Hardworking right? Then after studying for 2 hours plus. We went for a swim! Hahah. Fun, fun, fun! Took photos but I don't have the photos so can't upload. Will upload as soon as I have the photos. But Chloe can't swim cause her mum don't let her. Her mum scared she drowned. HAHA. Then we went to sauna and we are inside till the temperature rise to 50 degrees. Damn hot la. Yiwei, Chloe and Ting Ting sweat-ed. But me, Weiying and Huiji don't sweat. HAHAH. Then Huiji say it is because we don't have fats to burn. HAHAH! Fun, fun, fun :D Then my mum make tom yam cup noodles for them. Hahah! Then they must go home le, so I go send them out to take bus! Hahah. Then went home and now here I am, blogging! Hahah.

Nothing much to post le. Shall end here. I hate school. LMAO.

Will be back from MARS soon,

BRENDA :D

Every night you cry yourself to sleep

Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?

Why does every moment have to be so hard?"

Hard to believe that.

It's not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right

I may not make it through the night

I won't go home without you.

Extract from Won't Go home without you by Maroon 5.

P.S Wilbert, thanks for this nice song!

2008-04-09T20:34:00.000-07:00

Heyheyheyheyheyheyheyheyhey!
I am like so sorry for not updating about my China Trip. Hahah. Cause I am really busy, or I am too tired after studying the whole day. Seriously, I really enjoyed the trip. And even till now, I feel that I still miss it a lot! I can’t possibly type out what I did for the 10 days but I will highlight some of the interesting facts.

#1. Budget Terminal Is really PLAIN.
Don’t even bother to take photo there. Hahah. Cause all the wall is white! Hahah. I will never ever go and sit the plane there but no choice, the only airline that had direct flight there. Hahah. But then the flight there still okay la. Don’t have smelly people beside you! But then when I come back, sit behind myself, beside me, still got a smelly old woman! I cannot stand her smell! It makes me think of my chemistry teacher… Hahaha. I cannot be bad la.

#2. China Is a Really nice country! Hahah.
The friends we know there is really friendly. We are somehow related? Like cousins. But they really make me changed my view about China. They are cool too. They know how to speak English and also they treat us like sincerely. And they are really nice people who you can chat with. I really miss them!

#3. They LOVE to drink tea till 12 midnight.
For the how many night when I am there, every single night, I will be drinking tea till 12 midnight. Lmao. My eyes like shutting there, they still chatting and chatting! Hahah. But the bubbles milk tea damn nice! :D Practically, every single night, will be drinking that. And their seats is not normal seats, it is like swing. You can swing there and here. Hahah. Cool right? I know.

#5. I felt so welcomed when I went down to the village.
It is like when you reached there, they will have firecracker and this is a form of welcoming us and also another reason, to let them know that someone coming down to the village to ‘visit’ them. HAHA. So when the firecracker sounded, like a whole bunch of people suddenly just pop up infront of you. Hahah, like so drama la. But that is the first time I see firecracker, the sound made by it is really really loud esp. the last one. Can deaf la, then they dunno put how many time so I can like suffer from loss of hearing.

#4. The village kids are really poor little things.
Went down to the village and my mum prepared some small gifts for them. When they received it, you never see their face, they are really happy. And they are daring, they can ask us, “Auntie, do you have anymore those toys?” obviously in Chinese. But they are not greedy, they just want to give it to their brothers and sisters which make me think about how lucky Singaporean kids are.

#5. Village Food, I just can’t take it. Lmao.
As the villagers volunteer to cook for us. They use big pans to cook it la. I mean I can even sit inside the cooking pan. Scary right? Hahah. Then they cooked up the hill. Like with all the insects??? And dogs??? Hahah. Then like so many vegetables, then they killed all kind of animals infront of me. I am like eww, so disgusted. Their chicken is as hard as stone la. So I can’t possible eat it but I still manage to eat some cause very hungry la. Hahah.

#6. Petrol Station is really weird.
We rented a driver and also a mini-van la. Cause we going back to a town on the last night to get ready to set off for the airport the next day. We were traveling on the expressway then like we going 4 expressways. Before going in to expressway A, we went to a petrol station A, they told us no more oil. Lol. Never mind, after finishing expressway A, we went to petrol station B, they told us the same thing, no more oil. Lmao. After that, the driver told us that because the oil price is going to rise the next day, so they are saving for tml then sell. Then like, in Singapore where got say no oil then no oil de. Hahah. Then went expressway B, halfway saw petrol station, again, say no oil. Then ask them, if we paid more, can sell us, they like screaming saying really no oil. Then, we started mumbling very loudly. Hahah. No choice la, move on, until going halfway expressway D, the driver feel that cannot le, must off the air-con to save oil. Then me and my brother was thinking if this time round, no more then we die le, must go down and push the van. Hahah. Luckily, later on, saw a petrol station that got oil then we tell the driver to pump full full. HAHAH.

#7. Everything needs Money there.
Like you go to the Zoo. Then, you paid the admission fees. But when you go inside, you see crocodile eat chicken for less than one minutes also need money la. Lmao. Like, so money faced. Like go to their beach, also need money la! Hahah. But their beach damn pretty. Got a lot of water activities. But never manage to play all cause no time. But next time when I go there, I will complete playing all. :D Hahah.

That’s all, I think. Some, I forgotten le so too bad. Hahah. But till now, I still miss it a lot. :D

So nowadays, I will try to blog as frequent as possible cause I always need to stay back till 5pm everyday!!!! Like, when I reach home, I am tired like hell le. Hahah. So don’t miss me! And ya, I updated my current favourite (: I am in love with this song now.

Somehow, somewhat, describing my feelings now.

Take care, my readers,
BRENDA.

We don't need to go that far,

Let's hold on to where we are.

If it's real we'll make it through,

Cause all I need is you.

Extract from All I need is You - TheClickFive.

2008-03-06T20:25:00.000-08:00

HEY, everyone! :DDDDDD

I think I am liking back blogging again but i still dont like the idea of writing diary. Hahah.

It is lame to write a diary. Don't you feel so?

Hahah.

Today, Pearline and me were walking to the bus 34 bus-stop.

We were walking in a narrow path, talking happily.

Then, suddenly, we heard a lady saying,

" Can you all please walk on one side? You think you own the road? "

As we are in a happy mood, we just let her pass.

But guess what? She point her middle finger at us! Wth la.

Then pearline shouted,

" You think your mother own this road? "

Then, she point her middle finger again.

Then I shouted,

" ! @ # $ %^ & I* ( % ^ $ % "

Then she point again! Lol.

Funny la. We feel that she is so crazy.

In the first place, we still let her pass leh and then she point her finger at us.

She is like so unreasonable, can? I can't believe that it is really happening la.

Pearline and I still asking ourselves whether we are dreaming that anot, but we realised that it is really happening. Hahah.

She's mad la!

I can't stand rude people!

GRRRRRR. But I don't feel angry leh, seriously.

Just feel that, she is crazy. HAHAH.

My post is coming to a end,

So, Take care, guys! & Enjoy your March Holiday! :D

I'll post again when I am back from my flying trip!

BRENDA ; Miss me, yeah? :D

Even though i try to play it off,

I'm thinking about you all day long.

Suffocate - J. Holiday

2008-03-05T20:12:00.000-08:00

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

Came across this quiz, so decided to try it. Hahah.

I am a brainy girl, sound so nerd, though.

Hahaha :DDD

Off i go, packing my bag. Hahaha!

BRENDA

And the hearts all over the world tonight ♥

2008-03-04T21:27:00.000-08:00

HEYA!

Today is tuesday. Seem like my flying time is coming very soon!!!!

Did I tell you I am flying?

Hahah. Don't think I did.

But I am flying away from Singapore to some place. Will tell you where when I am back with photos. :DDDD Can't wait right? Hahah!

But I am not really excited with the trip. You see, I will miss biology test, my current hot science subject and also I will miss doing my coursework, which I will be slower than the others when I am back cause I will miss the extra lesson during Mach Holiday, so now I am rushing to rush my coursework, but I seem to have no idea at all, which is causing my headache now.

GRRRRR. TA result all back. I am quite happy though.

All pass except F&N, hahah.

It is normal to fail F&N, it will be shocking if I pass it. LOL

Last Saturday, was Cross- country and for the first time in three years, I run all the way. But I still get a blank card. Shit, didnt get top 30.

But it's okay, at least I did earn one point for my class. I think my class should have quite alot of points by now. Then maybe, we can get the $500 cheque at the end of the year. Hehehee!

And best of all is I saw him that day! ROFL

I am hyper, can? Like so many months, finally see him! Woohooo~

Of course, I am staring at him. But rain started to fall, then must go back early. ARGH.

Hahah. But I am contented la. (:

I skipped choir today! What a fun thing to do. Please la, see the instructor face, can vomit blood. She is so proud can? Still scold her vain!

Our scores, is our problem la. We want to write what, need your permission?

And fyi, I will never queue up to let you teach me sing!

I'm disgusted by her stuck ed- up attitude. Ewww.

Let don't about her, it will make me feel angry only.

So, I will be back from my flying trip and then I will post again with lots of photos! (:

Wait for me, I will be back for more!

BRENDA

You make me fall in love.

And the heart are all over the world tonight.

With you - Chris Brown

2008-02-27T05:17:00.000-08:00

I had fall in love with ArronYanYaLun. Mygod. He is really cute. Hahah.

I had fallen in love with him. And he is only 22yearsold this year. Meaning, older by me few years. CAN LA! ROFL.

BRENDA

P.S Pearline, I am sorry if I hurt your feeling. Was too angry then. =/

2008-02-25T22:23:00.000-08:00

I'm damn pissed off by homeworks. Esp. the abt cat research. Lmao.

What a difficult topic? Lmao. I am not doing it. Seriously, I am giving up now.

F&N coursework, like not going on well too. Seem so geography, my answer. KNS la.

POA, I am de-proving, sians.

I got only 46/50. Lmao. When other people got higher marks than me. !!!!!

Lol. I am going to work harder soon, very soon. Like tml onward?

So, I am not care anymore and I am sleeping the minute I off my computer.

Hahahaha. I am throwing everything in my brain on this post.

And of course, I am feeling much much better. :D

See you guys soon!!!!!

BRENDA :D

P.S I think I saw him today! Hahaha! I am hyper, okay? Lol.

& Big girls don't cry.

2008-02-22T02:11:00.000-08:00

HEYHEYHEYHEYHEY!

Hahahah. I'm updating again.

This week is the best week since CNY. Hahah, no lessons at all. And it is over so so so fast. Next week, lesson will start again. I feel so SIANS about it. Lol. I'm lazy, as you can tell that. Hahah.
For the first three days, was workshop. And it is actually quite fun when there were games but come to the theory part then abit bored. Lol. Then we decided to play games. Played muderer with chloe, yiwei, weiying, tingting, huiji, pris, yicong, keith, jonanthan and weiming. Lol. Funfun:D

Hahah. Then break time, too bored so decided to stand on the chair. Lol.

Some crazy pictures below:

HEARTS x33

ONE! TWO! FOUR! FIVE! :D

ZEROS.

Crazy photos to entertain you all. Lol.

Then fourth day, have chemistry test early in the morning. Test on Preparation of salt, mole and Redox.
Lmao. Mole calculation is like so complicated until I just divide and times with any number that I see in the questions. LOL. Sure cannot get good marks for the test.

Then after that got some talks about HIVs and AIDS.

Lol. And they teach how to wear a condom which made alot of people laugh! Lol.

Today, Went to EAST COAST PARK for CIP. Must pick litters at the beach. -.- Not I throw one. Lol. But then teacher say after picking up, we will have our own time to have picnic. Lol. Then I prepare Egg Sandwiches for them. Sadly, most of them say is dangerous to eat my home made sandwiches. Lol. But they all say is nice! Hahah. :D We went there, walk one round picking up litters but the plastic bag is so weak, keep having a hole, then all the litters drop down again. Lol. Then after a while, started picnic. Hahah. They like going to open MAMA shop la. So so so many snacks. Lol. Then we went to the beach to play. Lol.

Tingting, Chloe, Weiying, Brenda & Yiwei ;D

PEACE ((((((:

SMILES. :D:D:D

Ready, Get Set, Go!

We were searching for GOLDS! Lol.

WE ARE STRONG! Hahahah.

CHLOE WEIYING YIWEI BRENDA

ILOVETHEM.

CHLOE BRENDA YIWEI WEIYING.

But after that we realised that it actually say CB, Yiwei. Lol.

Hahah. Write till here.

BRENDA :D

2008-02-14T22:00:00.000-08:00

Extracted from I hate everything about you by Three Days Grace

Every time we lie awake,

After every hit we take,

Every feeling that I get,

But I haven't missed you yet,

Only when I stop to think about it.

I hate everything about you.

Why do I love you?

I hate everything about you.

Why do I love you?

Only when I stop to think

About you, I know,

Only when you stop to think,

About me, do you know?

To you,
I waited for you to online.
Hoping to see you online, but you did not.
Rmb last year, I say Happy Valentine Day to you, but this year, I am not able to.
I know the answer long ago, but i just can't let you go.
=\ Still, Happy Valentine Day.

1year19days x33

2008-02-05T18:15:00.000-08:00

Heya.
Can't believe it, for the first time in school, I act as a rabbit in the school CNY concert today. Lol. I can't believe it. Lmao. I was so nervous, can? So, so so many people and I must hop.
Tml, no school. How happy I am. Don't need to wake up so early.

Time passes fast, don't you agree with me?
Why don't rewind it to last year? At least, you are still talking to me at that time. Now, you won't even bother to online. Sigh.
Listening to 我让你走了by Wilber Pan.

It is a old song, I know. But it is really describing me feelings now.
I am sad again, although I say I will not be sad again. I mean, why can't I just see you again. I saw your friends, I thought I can see you again but I realised that you did not come back with them.
Sigh. I miss you, I really do.
I miss the time that I will be able to see you every morning.
I miss the time that I will be able to see you every recess.
I miss the time that I will be able to see you at the bus-stop.
I miss the time that we talk on msn.
But now, all I have is memories of us.
Forget it, you won't be able to understand how I feel.
I'm emo-ing again. Lmao. I mean, I really did try my best to keep those feeling right right right down my heart but it just came out suddenly.

Hahaha. I will be okay soon! I just need to write it out somewhere if not my brain will be thinking and thinking about it. (:

I know it won't matter cause I'm gone in your heart.

BRENDA/ 1year10days.

我让你走了 潘玮柏

我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落没有人发现我还在难过

其实早就已经忘了怎么说

就算再怎么舍不得你还是走了

我还不想承认这事实怎么会变成这个样子

没有了我真的什么都没有了就象一个废人

回家的路上我哭了眼泪再一次崩溃了

无能为力这样走着再也不敢骄傲奢求了

我还能够说些什么我还能够做些什么

我好希望你会听见

因为爱你我让你走了我让你走了

x33 :D

2008-01-31T03:57:00.000-08:00

Hey! I am updating again. Hahahah. I got lots of parts on interesting events.

I will start the post about the outing with my loves one for amanda birthday.

So, it was amanda birthday so we went out to eat dinner on saturday, of course is night as it is dinner. So you sit the mrt to Tiong Bahru Plaza. They have this restaurant called The Rajah Inn.

It's steamboat. One person have one personal small one. And they have this Ala-carte buffet. So you can like order everything and anything. They have the best prawns and fishes! The buffet includes ice cream, Chocolate Fondue and stuffs, damn nice. I love it!

The small steamboat. Cute? Hahah.

Pearline wore a dreeesss on that day and enjoying her foods!

Ben drinking his drink, and it is his second cup, he like never drink before like this. Lol.

And the soil fuel is buring our eyes. We keep on crying because of the chemical it gives out.

Drinks!

This egg is a very special egg. It is laid by... But this egg name is Baby Joel. So... I will show you the father now.

This is the father, but you can see, he is very shy. FATHER JOEL (:

Birthday Girl. She is not looking at my side as me and pearline took photo of her at the same time. LOL

So, we sat there and eat like few hours, i think we eat the longest. Hahah! Cause very nice!
After eating, we went arcade!!!! I miss it so much. Hahahah!

After that went home, in the mrt, we decided to take photo. But we failed alot of time la.

First trying.

Lots of trying, Finally, perfect one.

STAR ;D

US.

Our heads. But dunno who is who. I forget too! Lol.

The End for Part One.

Next, I am posting a post about the school table PC. I love it! It is so COOL! Hahah. I enjoy drawing on it. Below, is things that I had drawn.

;DDD

ME! Hahah!

Him ;D LOVES.

MY BESTIE!

Pearline with a LONG hair.

AMANDA, with her CURLY HAIR.

WILBERT, With his cheeky smile!

My F&N Family.

PRIS.

YUEPING.

KEITH, with his CURLY HAIR.

The End for Part Two.

So ytd, I went to eat buffet! NICE! HAHAHA. I ate about 50pieces of salmons? So, now I am abit scared of it. Lol.

I hearts you, B(:

BRENDA

1year5days.

Extracted from Tongue-tied by Faber-Drive.

I stare up at the stars

I wonder just where you are

You feel a million miles away

Was it something i said

Or something i never did

Or was i always in the way

Can someoone tell me what to say

To just make you stay

I need a little more luck then a little bit

Cuz everytime i get stuck the words wont fit

And everytime that i try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help then a little bit

Like a perfect one word the ones forget?

Cuz everytime i try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time.

2008-01-18T04:54:00.000-08:00

HELLLO, GUYS!!!!

I am back! Hahahahha! Because WIL, the BITCH told me to update.

Hahahh. I am real busy with homework, revising of works and catching up with my sleep.
Awww. I only slpt for only about 6 hours a day? So I have black panda eyes. Hahah

Testssssssssssss! Lol. Like in one week, got chemistry, math, biology, POA and chinese. Going abit bonker. Got back my biology result 10/10. Hahah. Of course, I study till 1am for that test. Lol.

Today is a very short day so I am happy! But got choir -.- So today had Chinese, wrote something, forgotten what is that. Then PE, run 3 rounds, timing 13mins30seconds. Lol. So so slow. Hahah. Then got english. Crazy Ms Ros, come in throw temper again then want to change our partners in pair-work, so end up, I pair up with Chengwei. Wrote a prose about adverstiment. Rack my brain la, dunno what to write about the damn picture. Lol. Then break. Then Biology, study about hormones. So Yiwei started to get horny, then she say I horny. Dunno why. LOL.

Then got new rule, every friday, must clean our classroom and bring ALL textbooks, workbook, any books back! Lmao. Heavy la. KNS.

Then Chinese Test about comphrension. I wrote 4 pieces. Wow. I cant believe it.

Then Choir, sing, sang and sung.

Then suppose to meet hanwei after choir but he off his phone -.- So at last never meet until.

Aiya, whatever. Always like this.

After everything we had done together for the past year, he just like that ps us like we're nothing to him. You're busy. I am busy too. But I still get the time to eat lunch with my friends and not ps them like you had done. Even Wilbert got the time, dont give me excuses. ARGH.
I can't treat you like last time when I will call you anywhere and anytime even if you are at different level as us. But now? Even walked past, also never say hello like we are stranger. And I am sad, really sad about it. But do you know how we feel? Maybe like you say, we dont know how you feel. So, I can't do anything abt it. Be friends anot, your problem because I had tried. Lmao. I am crazy to be sad because of him -.-

I shall end here, hope I will have the time to post again!

BRENDA (:

Mood: Emo-less!/ In Love with Red!

The Bp Day is coming!

2007-10-19T16:04:00.000-07:00

Heyheyheyheyheyheyheyheya!

I have turn 15 years old today! Hahahah.

I'm so proud of it:D LOL

First of all, I want to thanks everyone that I had wished me Happy Birthday.

Secondly, I want to thank Pearline, Amanda, Wilbert, GlennNg and Joel for that birthday surprise. I enjoyed it very much.

Thirdly, I want to thank god that my results was not really bad. Hahah.

Yesterday after school, went TM to celebrate my birthday. My friends decided to bring me somewhere and no matter how loud I ask them where they are going, nobody answered me. Went to PastaMania and Pearline wanted to go toilet. One by one wanted to go toilet too. LOL

Then left me, Wilbert and Glenn. Then they started to tell me all sort of craps like Pearline and Amanda drop into the toilet bowl etc.

Then they came back after a long long long long time. Hahah ;D And came back with a birthday cake! And it was Minnie Mouse with my name on top! I thought that was too nice to eat. LOL

Then after that everything was Mickey Mouse. The cup, straw,plate and tissue. It make me think of children party! Hahah xD

I LOVE IT!~ THANK YOU!!!!

Below, some random pictures.

Mickey mouse cup and straw.

Mickey Mouse plate.

Mickey Mouse Tissue.

My Birthday Cake.

Preeeetttttyyyy ((((:

And all my gifts.

Thirdly, my SA2 results.

I was really disappointed in Math. I failed Math. =\

How can I fail Math?!?!?!?

F&N, nothing to say. Fail again.

The rest still okay.

English B4

Chinese C5

Math D7

Science C5

Geo+SS B4

POA A1

F&N D7

Lastly, I love him. He wished me Happy Birthday!

Hahah :D

BRENDA

2007-10-03T22:46:00.000-07:00

Finally, the day is arriving.

Tml, You'll be leaving. I may not be able to see you again.

What am I suppose to do?

How can I let you go?

What will happen to my days without you in school?

Forget about it, brenda. He wouldn't care much anyways.

Goodbye, my lover. / { 250 days. }

I watch you from a distance.

I remember all those instances

When you smile.

When you laugh.

I tried to read between the lines,

I tried to look in your eyes,

I want a simple explanation.

For what I'm feeling inside.

I gotta find a way out,

Maybe there's a way out.

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said.

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.

I don't wanna ever love another,

You'll always be my thunder.

You've got the spunk I'vebeen lookin' for.

And I don’t want to fall to pieces.

I just wanna sit and stare at you.

I don’t wanna talk about it,

And I don’t want a conversation.

I just wanna cry in front of you.

I don’t wanna talk about it,

‘cause I’m in love with you.

It's not supposed to hurt this way.

I need you, I need you,

More and more each day,

It's not supposed to hurt this way.

I need you, I need you, I need you.

Tell me, why.

You don't know me.

Don't ignore me.

You don't want me there,

You just shut me out.

You don't know me.

Don't ignore me.

If you had your way,

You'd just shut me up.

Make me go away.

No, I just don'tunderstand why,

you won't talk to me.

It's hurts that I'm so unwanted for nothing.

Don't talk words against me.

I wanted to know you,

I wanted to show you.

You're a harmony to the melody,

That's echoing inside my head.

When I hear my favorite song,

I know that we belong.

You are the music in me.

I know you see me lookin' at you and you already know.

I wanna love you, you already know.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've been addicted to you.

And I'm gonna miss you like a...

Child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry.

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my love.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

Sometime, goodbye the only way.

2007-09-19T19:47:00.000-07:00

Hey, readers.

How long have I not post, quite a long time.

Exams, exams and exams.

Maths Maths Maths

I feel so so so so so damn sians la.

Studying like hell =\ ARGH!

Will post after exams, yeah?

So wait for it patiently :D

BRENDA / { 235, I love you. }

I miss you lots.

Why am I feeling so sad about it?

I don't know why.

How I wish you will talk to me.

But it won't happen.

What make you change.

It seem like I do not know you anymore.

Remember that time when I tell you, I like you.

But you seem not bothered about it and told me you know it long time ago.

How I cry, when you tell him that you have no feelings for me.

It is the truth? Don't you have any feelings for me?

I try and try to forget about you.

But I always failed to do so.

Do you know how hurting is that to me?

I love you is what I want to tell you.

I will miss you when you leave school is what I want to tell you.

I will think about you is what I want to tell you.

What I want to tell you, that's lots of it.

But I won't be able to tell you.

I'm crying, shouting your name in the crowds, but you can't hear me.

It's too late for everything now.

I can't control the ending.

I hate the ending myself, but it started with an alright scene.

2007-09-02T11:39:00.000-07:00

难过是因为闷了很久

是因为想了太多是心理起了作用

你说苦笑常常陪著你

在一起有点勉强该不该现在休了我

不想太多

我想一定是我听错弄错搞错

拜托我想是你的脑袋有问题

随便说说

其实我早已经猜透看透不想多说

只是我怕眼泪撑不住

不懂

你的黑色幽默

想通却又再考倒我说散

你想很久了吧

我不想拆穿你

当作是你开的玩笑

想通却又再考倒我说散

你想很久了吧

败给你的黑色幽默

我的认真败给黑色幽默

BRENDA

#218. I like you too much to forget you =\

And I do not know what to do.

2007-08-28T20:19:00.000-07:00

Heyheyheyhey!

I'm backkkkkk!

Miss me? I guess you all will.

Hahahhah! Many things happened since the last time I post!

The most interesting thing is OBS!!!

I miss it alot alot. Hahahh.

My Watch was RAFFLES. There were 16 of us.

-BRENDA 3E6

-NISARAT 3E6

-YUNQIAN 3E6

-JASMINE 3E6

-WEIYING 3E6

-HUIRONG 3E6

-HUIYI 3E6

-SINGYEE 3E6

-YUJUN 3E6

-NURULAZRAH 3E6

-BENJAMIN 3E6

-TECKCHUAN 3E6

-JESLIN 3N1

-GUANXIONG 3N1

-HEONG HWEE 3N1

-IQBAL 3E5

I guess the 16 of us really enjoy ourselves.

There was one more person that is important to us too.

Is our instructor. Instructor PEI LEE.

Although sometime there will be quarrels, but we are still united as a group (:

I can learn lots lots lots of things.

Hiking was really really tiring. 8hours of hiking, holding that heavy backpack. Mygod. It is reeaalllyyy tired. =\

Hahahha. Flying Fox, WOW! The experience was really cool! Hahah. I LOVE IT!~

Kayak-ing was fun too. Hahah!~ Capsizing the boat. Hahah!~

Never will I forget this experience.

Raffles, forever&ever (((((:

Stop here now. Cya again. (:

BRENDA

P.S The song that is playing now is my favourite song. Hahha (:

What am I thinking now? I don't understand it too. =\

2007-08-06T03:30:00.000-07:00

靠近一点点

(Come a little closer)
- 演唱：南拳妈妈Lara
Come Near A Little Closer By: Lara [Nanquan Mama][Verse]

I wait quietly behind you

"mo mo zai ni de shen hou shou hu de wo"

Really want to see your accidental smile

"duo xiang kan ni bu jing yi de xiao rong"

Maybe you do not understand my heart

"huo xu wo de xin ni bu dong"

But I will try my hardest to touch your heart

"wo hui nu li rang ni gan dong"

I'm the clumsy one in your eyes

"zai ni yan zhong duo me ben zuo de wo"

I will not give up following you

"jue bu fang qi zhui zu ni de zhi zhuo"

I just need you to give me some response

"zhi yao ni neng duo xie hui ying wo"

I will accept a smile or a nod

"yi ge xiao huo dian tou quan dou jie shou"

Can I come a little closer

"neng bu neng zai kao jin yi dian dian"

Confess my feelings out to you loudly

"da sheng shuo chu ni suo you gan jue"

Don't shut yourself in your own world anymore

"bie zai jin jin guan zai zhi you zi ji de shi jie"

The warm sun welcomes you

"wen nuan tai yang wei ni ying jie"

Can I come a little closer

"neng bu neng kao jing yi dian dian"

Can I become braver a little bit

"neng bu neng zai yong gan yi dian dian"

Even if I know that it will always be a one-sided love affair

"jiu shuan rang wo zhi dao wo yong yuan zi shi dan lian"

I will still keep my gratitude

"wo ye hui chang zhe gan xie"

Smiling to you and saying goodbye.

"xiao zhe he ni shuo zai jian"

[Repeat Verse]

BRENDA

That's how I feel now. =\

Let me forget who you are, will you?

2007-07-27T23:33:00.000-07:00

I love you (:

I'm not letting it go as I can't.

Thanks for talking to me.

Thanks for playing games with me again.

Thanks for asking abt me again.

I'm crying, don't ask me why.

I don't want it to end, can I?

Laugh with me, please don't go(:

BRENDA

#181. It's still going on. I really do.

2007-07-24T19:35:00.000-07:00

Where do I go from here Sebastian Mego.

Where do i go

Every direction

Seems to be against the flow

And who will I be

What does it mean to just be me

So tired of having to choose

Where I'll be and what I'm gonna do

(CHORUS)

Lost in cofussion I feel like I'm losing it all

Where do i go from here

With all this confusion now who's gonna break my fall

There's no one left to call

Nothing is clear

Where do i go from here

Did i let you down

My good intentions never seem to come around

And i have to believe

That there's an answer I can't see

So tired of having to choose

Where I'll be and what I'm gonna do

CHORUS

I cant tell what's up or down

My head's spinning all the time

Every time that i turn around

There's another useless sign

I wanna know but i don't know

Which way I'm gonna go where will i go, yeah

Which way will i go, ohhh

CHORUS (repeat)

Where do i go

Tell me where do i go.

BRENDA

I love you.

I can't let it go. I really can't let it go.

Useless hopes, take it back. Damn it.

2007-07-13T20:27:00.000-07:00

HELLO, my dearest reader.

It had been a long time since I update. I know everyone is missing me alot.

Dunno why. Just don't have the mood to post.

Studies are just so damn bloody stress, listening to teachers.

I cant stand the topic I am studying now for math, Problem Solving Graphs. It is so difficult for me to understand the fucking problem sums. English&Geography were always group work, and I don't think I learn much from the group works I am having, just so shitto.

Even POA, I cant stand. CASHBOOK, So troublesome!!!

Chemistry, I am coping alright but she make me sit on the floor just because I never bring my file?! The last lesson she say no chemistry today mahs. How would I know that actually that is lesson?! ARGH!~

Biology. I'm trying very hard to listen to teacher in class and I copy notes down okay. I never slack for biology le cause if I fail this, I think my combined science can never be pass =\

Chinese, SHIT. I still got a chinese letter writing to write.

LOL! Please remember, brenda.

The worst thing is F&N.

Just finish coursework A, now must finish coursework B. So arsehole la. I don't even know how to do cause I never go for the extra class =X LOL!

But no matter what, I just feel F&N so sucky.

Opps. Seem that this post was all my complaints about studying.

Next week, I will be going two learning journey.

As Keith and I are the class Environment Ambassador, we are going to the Ulu

Pandan Refuse Incineration Plant and he agrees to go with me! Hahah (: I bet that that place stink?! Based on what amanda and pearline say? LOL.

The next trip I was going to is to vist the NEWATER VISITOR CENTRE with my class(: And also pearline class!! LOL! I'm excited! ((((: So many learning journeys.

Sigh. My sister is fever-ing and temperature quite high. The doctor say if the fever dont go down on Sunday, must bring her go Hospital cause scared is Dengue. I'm really scared la. I wish that all this happen to me than her la. She is still small and she is really brave, never even complain at all. Sigh~ I see her also want to cry la =\ Seriously wish she will get better before Sunday.

Today, after school went out with amanda and pearline.

The rule now is TUESDAY AND FRIDAY ARE ALL-GIRLS DAY meaning not going to go out with hanwei and joel. Hahah.

That rule was set by Amanda, And agreed by Pearline and Brenda. Hahah.

I think I'll end this post now.

Take care(:

LOVES,

BRENDA.

#168. I hate the ending myself, but it started with an alright scene.

It hurts to stay online when you're online cause I no longer got the courage to talk to you anymore.

2007-07-09T17:23:00.000-07:00

Star- 200 pounds beauty.
The wind is shaking the windows, and over my small room,

the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly

Too many to count, the stars reassure tired me

They wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

Don't be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me

and comfort me, telling me to go to sleep

Though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk though my tears blur my vision

I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short,

I'll treasure it deep inside my heart like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright

It is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder

Stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me and gives me a warm hug

Though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk though my tears blur my vision

I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short,

I'll treasure it deep inside my heart like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won't cry though my eyes fill with tears

I want to laugh like those stars

Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart

Like those countless number of stars, forever.

BRENDA

You understand the pain I am going through?

I love you and it is killing me slowly.

2007-07-04T16:58:00.000-07:00

Current Addiction: Nobody's home by Avril Lavigne

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,

She felt it everyday.

And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?

Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.

You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.

Be strong, be strong now.

Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.

Her dreams she can't find.

She's losing her mind.

She's fallen behind.

She can't find her place.

She's losing her faith.

She's fallen from grace.

She's all over the place.

Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

BRENDA

#159. I try and try but my obsession won't let me leave.

2007-07-03T20:13:00.000-07:00

Heyyyyyyyyyyy.

Finally, FINALLY, I had watched STORM THE YARD. I'm in love with it. Totally.

Obviously, I'm in love with CHRIS BROWN. But he died so fast, haven even half an hour, he died because people shoot him =.= Hahahha. But after finishing the show, I keep rewinding to the front and see him dance. And he is so damn bloody cool la. HAHAHAH (((((:

Today, went to school unwillingly. It seem to me that I really hate school, facing all the works teacher giving. I really begining to dislike school.

Everythings just changed after that day. School seem a torture to me, seeing you made me feel the hurts.

Why is that happening? I wish it can stop hurting.

To stop the pain, I divert my attention to my works, books and storybook.

It's not really working anyway.

Homeworks sucks. =\ I HATE IT.

Coursework sucks. =\ I HATE IT EVEN MORE.

Went to have lunch with Amanda, Pearline, Hanwei, Joel, QuanLong and Jeremy. Called Wilbert for a hundred times and he did not answer his phone. =\

Went KFC have lunch. Had food fight with them. hahah. Then went walking around with them at CS and TM. Had a fun time with them. Esp. with hanwei, quanlong and jeremy, we hide from amanda,pearline and joel at one point. Hahahh. Then amanda, pearline and me ran away away from them.

Sorry to hanwei, didnt mean it. =\ Went to library and borrow books. Sigh.

Then went to buy drinks. And then me and amanda blocking a small entrance of a shop and then a woman just walk there, without saying excuse me, she say " Didnt your teacher in school teach you not to block the entrance? " Come on la, I dont even know she want to get in right? And worst of all, I dont even know she is scolding me but I still answer, " my teacher never teach me that in school" in a not very loud and not very soft volume. Then pearline started saying in a quite a loud voice " My teacher teach me everything. " Then the woman say she want to complain and then ask us what is our school. Then pearline say "JUNYUAN SEC." LOL! Then she keep diao-ing us la. Then after she left, she walk past hanwei and pearline and say " just wait and see." What the shit? I mean if she say excuse me, I sure will let her pass mahs. Unreasonable la. =\

I'm going OBS, I had decided it. With pearline. I will be with her at all times, or when she needs me, I promise her (((((:

Current addiction : Because of you by NEYO.

[Verse 1]

Want to but I can't help it.

I love the way it feels.

This got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real.

I need it when I want it.

I want it when I don't.

Tell myself I'd stop everyday,

Knowing that I won't.

[Hook #1]

I've got a problem and I.. (don't know what to do about it)

Even if I did, I don't know if i would quit

But I doubt it.

I'm, Taken by the thought of it..(mmm mm)

And I know this much is true (mmmmm)

Baby, you have become my addiction.

I'm so strung out on you (mmmm)

I can barely move...but I like it,

[Chorus]

And it's all because of you (all because of you)

So, and it's all because of you (all because of you)

And it's all because of you (all because of you)

So, and it's all because...

Never get enough,

She's the sweetest drug. (Oowuuu)

[Verse 2]

Think 'bout it every second, I can't get nothing done.

Only concern is the next time, I'm 'gon me some.

Know I should stay away from, Cause it's no good for me.

I try and try but my obsession, won't let me leave.

[Hook #1]

I've got a problem and I (don't know what to do about it)

Even if I did I don't know if i would quit

But I doubt it.

I'm, Taken by the thought of it. (mmmm) (heeyh..)

And I know this much is true, (mmmm)

Baby, you have become my addiction.

I'm so strung out on you, (strung out on you..)

I can barely move...but I like it, (but I like it..)

[Chorus]

And it's all because of you (all because of you) (aey!)

So, and it's all because of you (all because of you)

And it's all because of you (all because of you)

So, and it's all because...

Never get enough (Never get enough..) She's the sweetest drug.

[Hook #2]

Ain't no doubt.... (no doubt heayh)

So strung out. (Strung out heeayh)

Ain't no doubt.... So strung out. (heahheh!)

Over you, Over you,(yooouuu)

Over you(yooouuu)...

[Chorus]

And it's all because of you (aey!)(all because of you)

So, and it's all because of you (all because of you)

And it's all because of you (all because of you)

So, and it's all because... Never get enough (Oooh never get enough)

She's the sweetest drug, ...She's the sweetest drug...

BRENDA

#158. The more happy I look, the worst-er I feel.

I can't explain that feelings.

Don't go, Mr Ong!

2007-06-29T20:49:00.000-07:00

LET ME HEAR YOU SAY HEY HEY HEY!

Quote by The best damn thing.

The new timetable SO shit la.

No lunch, recess at 1045, I will die of hunger!

And worst of all, PE is the last lesson of the day which mean it is in the afternoon, so damn bloody hot la. What is wrong with them??

SIGH! And my form teacher now teach me English, Geography and CME so I think I will be seeing her alot of times in a day.

Although it is not so bad but her class FULL OF GROUP WORKS or TALKS.

SIANS!

SEE BELOW PICTURES!

YIWEI DRAW SO WELL. I'm so impressed of her drawing when she show it to me.

Tell me to draw, NEXT YEAR, I think I haven finish. LOL!

So nice yeah? I felt that the picture is really nice.

F&N? Sucks for me. I'm dont think I will be able to pass that damn subject la.

BUT I AM GOING TO BITC AGAIN. WOHOO!~ Hahahah (:

I LOVE IT!

BUT NOBODY DARE TO EAT when I bought home last year, only my dad eat one slice of it and then throw the rest away. =.=

That was a Youth's Day concert today. Quite LAME. But nice.

Good job, teachers and Mr Vanan broke a mike. LOL!

Then after school went to canteen and finish up my HOMEWORKS. Then waiting for Mr Ong to come at 4pm and we are waiting for him because it was the last day he coming. SIGH.

Then we don't feel like going to choir so early so we sat in the canteen.

Sitiing there infront of him is killing me and I dont feel like thinking about it.

So damn sick of them that I went walking around the school as they refused to change place =\

Then about 3.45pm? We decided to go up i-hub and blow air-con as we were sweating. When we went up, we saw BUFFET. Then some stupid people say that we timing very right, got food then come or else dont come. I mean we dont know there is FOOD okay?! =.= LAME SHIT.

NEVER TAKE ATTENDANCE = NO FOOD

GOT THIS TYPE OF THING?

*Copy and paste from pearline's blog*

HERE COMES THE GOOD PART.

Miss Tan : Got food then you all come, only come for food.

Pearline: We come just at the right time ma. And we got pay choir fund lo.

Miss Tan : Your choir fund very big ah.

I was giving her that =.= LOOK.

Not big then dont tell us to pay la. Not big mahs. =.=

Then played that clapping chinese games that me and amanda watched on CHANNEL 56 with Amanda,Pearline,Hanwei,Wilbert and Benjamin. Was fun.

Wilbert do not know toilet bowl in chinese.

When it was Pearline turn, she say sperm and then after her is amanda so amanda must say he,she,I or you something the sperms.

So She say she YOU EAT THE SPERMS and the YOU refer to PEARLINE.

LOL! Funny and Fun (:

Then Mr Ong came and we went in.

He resigned. He never say the reasons but I think he got good reasons for doing that. I will really miss him although he scold me, amanda and pearline sometimes, I am not angry of him at all, really. SIGH. He is a good conductor (:

I WILL REALLY MISS HIM.

We sang two songs for him. First, TIME TO SAY GOODBYE AND HEROES.

I cried, it was really touching. I dont him to go!!!! SIGH!~

SIGH!~ Crying there had other reasons too but let don't think about it.

I dont want to think about it.

Some photos I took while we were singing.

So I will be having a long weekend. No school on Monday! YEAH! (:

But damn lots of homeworkS la.

ARGH ARGH ARGH.

I must finish all of them on time!

GO! GO! GO!

What a long post! I am off doing my homework.

BYE & HAVE A NICE WEEKEND (:

BRENDA

#155.I can't let you go and this feeling is killing me =\

2007-06-28T19:07:00.000-07:00

(: HEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOO.

I am SO SO SO crap today. hahhaha.

Early morning went to eat breakfast with them.

DOUBLE-CHOCOLATE!~ I AM IN LOVE WITH IT LA.

Then hanwei come later. Then we discuss about what time we end our lesson and it is always amanda the lastest, me second, pearline third and hanwei is the earliest.

Hahahah. So we think that is because

AMANDA is special

BRENDA is express

PEARLINE is Normal A

HANWEI is Normal T

Hahahha. Funny yeah? hahhah.

WE got lots of names today. hahahha.

BRENDA= Miss WHATEVER/CRUEL/DAMN HORNY.

AMANDA=Miss SHUDDUP/ANGELIC/VERY HORNY.

PEARLINE=Miss DISORDER/RETARD/BLOODLY HORNY.

Hahhaah.

School lesson just sucks. Homework like mountain and my hands are breaking soon with all the typing of F&N coursework.

LATEST DEADLINE:NEXT FRIDAY.

I am going to make it on time. I wish. hahah.

POA test. 16/20. I'm disappointed. Highest in class is 19.5/20.

I had make stupid mistake la, cant be forgiven =\

Two days. Two fucking days, I did not see him. Sigh.

It is not like if I see him, I will dare to see him.

Whatever la.

JOEL LOW IS A GAY. EVERYBODY SEE!!! Ahahha.

AND HE OWE ME MONEY, dont return.

$500X4=$2000.

PLEASE PAY UP, THANKS.

OR action will be taken. LOL. =\

BORED BORED BORED.

Back to my homework for now.

BYE.

BRENDA

#154. I feel so alone.

Let go back back back to the first time I talk to you.

I love you although I had tried not to.

2007-06-27T17:57:00.000-07:00

Heyyyyy.

Posting a post, Finally.

School just so sucky.

Seeing him, homework, lessons and teacher nagging abt next year 'O' level.

It hurts even sitting infront of the computer, that's why I SO SO SO long never online. I am doing my F&N coursework now, and it's killing me.

HATE IT.

OBS camp. I dunno.

Part of me feel like going, part of me dont feel like going. I told my mum about it, and she say up to me. Sigh. I dunno. And it seem like both of them dont feel like going? I know I cant force them but if they not going, then I dont think it will be fun if i go alone. Sigh.

Nothing more to post.

Current addiction : HOME by Michael buble.

FYI, I love him:D

Another summer day

Has come and gone away

In Paris and Rome

But I wanna go home

Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane

Another sunny place

I’m lucky I know

But I wanna go home

Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home

I’m just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life

It’s like I just stepped outside

When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not

Come along with me'

Cause this was not your dream

But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come

And gone away

In even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home

Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

Oh, let me go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m done

I gotta go home

Let me go home

It will all be all right

I’ll be home tonight

I’m coming back home

BRENDA

#153. It's killing me slowly.

Stop it, it better to die than suffer.

SLEEP forever&ever, how I wish.